10:02 PM - Wednesday, April 1, 2009
i had a really fun bad day today. haha! ok i dont know how to put it but its a fun bad fun bad fun bad day.
it all started like this.

once upon a time. my clique said that my bestfriend met with an accident. i didnt trust them cos i know that they are trying to prank me. but then i played along lah. they seemed so serious about it. so i was half hearted to trust them or not. on my way to civic. i was thinking that if this was really a prank. im gonna get really angry upset and mad.
so then it was really a prank. oh wells i kept my angriness to myself eventhough i was about to scream out loud FUCK YOU! THIS IS NOT FUNNY! i kept it in my heart. but it was really not funny. i tried my best to put on a smile.

so then went to admiralty carpark to slack. waited for that kurap to come.
then he came. slack for awhile then i was hungry. so waited for sotong to come back.
then wanted to go to ap to eat. half way there................



i dunnoe why i lost my mood. somehow i just lost it just like that.
i ran to the bus stop. going to cry. when bestie came running after me. grrrrr!!
then i seriously dont feel like talking. hmms
so i went to the toilet at admiralty mrt. dunnoe why i went in. then went out again. i wanted to take train to go home but then sotong tk kasi. ccb!
so after he talked3 to me. i decided to sit at mc with them lorh. then kurap didnt even talked to me when i feel like talking. hampret! bla3. then i dont know where boncet and kurap go leaving gemok and sotong alone. sotong kept asking me. where they go where they go? i just kept quiet. they came back then we walked off from macD. to street soccer court. i was walking alone, crying when shahdan chased me. he was alone and he said that boncet and kurap are behind. i dont care. kept walking. my target to at least see hazique's face cos i miss him. know why. cos he's the only one who knows me inside out good and bad. he's always there for me when i need someone to talk to. now. i dont have anyone that understands me. no one to talk to. no one to console me when im down. understand me faizal?
so then i dont know where kurap and boncet went. menghilang for idk how long.
so i went home. with no goodbyes. :'(

this is for u faizal,
i know everything went wrong, wanna know why i was angry.
cos first. the april fool prank was really not funny. it hurts to make me rush down to cwp thinking i was gonna go to the hospital to see u. second my handphone dropped cos of u. it hurts. third. if u dont like my perangai why not talk to me? why talk to boncet? fourth. ckp ily abeh bukan nak bobal kn. padehal sebelah2 je. bacen. and yes yes yes i miss hazique cos he's the only one i can talk to.

ok now. im really sorry about what happened earlier. very sorry. i know i know u tahan thru all my angriness and shits i've done to you. u still stayed thru thick and thin. even though there are ups and downs i just want you to know that no matter what happens............. just remember that

i'll still love you bestfriend
<3
xoxo
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