12:43 PM - Friday, February 12, 2010
i tried to be strong everyday.
but theres no difference.
everyday i tried to avoid doing stuffs that reminds me of him
avoid talking to people that reminds me of him.
but i cant.
it's hard. very hard.
idk how he can easily get over it.
he didnt talk to me neither did he smile at me. worst things worst,
he didnt even want to look at me.
today is already the fourth day im acting like a zombie.
everyday i cry remembering back the memories with him.
every night i would text him a gdnight msg but still no reply from him.
i cant simply forget him just like that.
he left too soon.
evryday i read his messages he used to send.
he didnt mean it did he?
over and over again his last words repeated in my head like a
cd player,
"i don't feel the same anymore"
with no explanation
i was lost.
everyday i feel the same. PAIN.
and i want only kiehl to cure it.
only he can. nobody else but him.
sorry crisfaz, you can't simply ask me to forget kiehl
that easily and think of you.
i just can't.
im still trying my best to move on.
but i still wished he would come back.
:(
p/s: why is getting over him fucking hard? kiehl? islysm and imy badly.