HELLO PEOPLE!

2010-10-02T12:43:00.004+08:00

ok i know my blog has been dead for idk how long. its coz i seriously dont have time to update.

and cos today is saturday and idk why i am staying home. imma update.

ok. its been 5 months going to 6 with the boy. and alhamdulilah things are fine.

not really fine but ok lah. arguments here and there.

standard ah. but im glad he stayed strong. glad he kept holding on.

i know ive been hurting you quite alot of times. and im sorry for that.

you know i love you.

and i really hope we do last.

we can do it real big, bigger than you've ever done it.

i want this forever.

can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky's like shooting stars?

2010-06-19T18:33:00.002+08:00

this is irritating.

its always my fault isnt it?

nvr yours.

though its the slightest hing i did.

still can be a big issue.

right? and only i hurt you.

you've always taken good care of my heart.

its always me.

i always make you angry.

im sorry for that.

i may not need to leave you unless i have to.

i dont care about your feelings.

i only care about myself.

and i always find fault with you.

this is going to have to end.

start trusting me.

i know its hard but you have to.

i did my part.

and now yours too.

do say you care if you dont mean it.

like seriously.

how to stop arguing?

simple.

stop contacting.

cos everyday without fail,

there will be an argument between us.

i cn live with that.

but you.

asked me to stop arguing.

and again. its not always your heart,

your feelings, your friends, your way.

i need me time too.

2010-06-12T00:25:00.002+08:00

i've been wondering what if he fell in live with her? im so afraid to lose him.
it's holidays already and i doubt he has alot of plans. idk if things will change within this one night. but i hope not.

idk why. but im starting to miss her. stupid me. i know. maybe really nothing or no one can ever seperate us. but nothing i can do. he prolly hates me too now. its ok.

anws back to the topic. th boy is at his friend's chalet. and anything can happen within one night. im effing afraid idk why. i hope he know who's best for im. like seriously. if he change his feelings tmrw or sooner or later. i gonna be prepared for it. imma be strong enough to let him go. maybe i will try to. i trust him i trust him i trust him. tats all i've been repeating in my heart after start to ignore my msges. i hope he knows what he's doing. have fun but dont forget me. imma keep myself busy and not think of you. not gonna irritate you by texting you alot of times and just wait till you text me first. time check 12.34 a.m and you still havent replied me. imma go off now. gonna go call a troublemaker. idk why he suddenly ask me to go call him.

2010-05-31T22:03:00.003+08:00

to ex friend:

please change. everyone is talking about you, everyone ok.

my friends are also talking about you.

i really dont like the way you are now.

look at yourself. e

ven the guys that met you for the first time already comment about you to me.

what is ever going to become of you?

not only in school. even budak2 lepak says so.

they dont like you, cos you seem

to be attracting alot of attention to yourself.

and its not only in your school eh.

even my classmates hate you.

why are you behaving like a cheap girl?

why?

most of the guys in your school say they have tried you before.

how sick can that be?

wait?!

why do i care so much about you

when you dont even give a fcuk about me.

why?

because you used to be my friend after all.

but not anymore.

i dont want a friend like you.

maybe i was foolish to have pitied you

and made you my friend but ended up this way.

haha! but now you know what?

PADAN MUKE KAU!

i hope one day you get back what you did to me.

one day you'll realise it.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

JAHAT NYE AKU NIE.

dbh:

i just want you to know that iloveyou so much.

and i will wait for it. but just want you to know that no one waits forever.

dont blame me if i were to fall for others.

we can still be friends right.

but you know i wont cos you know how choosy i can be.

but whatever it is. islysm

AND I HATE SLUTS!

2010-05-28T15:01:00.002+08:00

hello. well its a public holiday today and im sitting alone at home right now.

havent bathe cos my mum went out to get shampooooooo.

well. the boy asked me what time is my netball training starting. i said at 8, he then asked me whether can meet earlier or not. i was like? eh? i tot he's going gig? but no. he's following me. mayhem is not hadcore gig. so yeah. im siiting here in front of the lappy thinking how to contact him. no house phone,no handphone for him. the only way is through internet.

and i noticed that buffalo is quiet for a few days ready.

i dont know why but yeahhhh. good ahh. maybe she's starting again. who knows?

but who cares? i dont need to care cos i've got wonderful friends to back me up.

the boy, my friend, nurul says we're sweet.

she likes to see couples argue then suddenly ok already.

yahahahahaha! how cute. but too bad we're not a couple eh.

and thanks for accompanying me to accompany my friend to cut hair.

i still can't believe that you're going to accompany me laterrrrr. hmmmmm.

i so want to hug you. gerammmmm ah. iloveyou

iloveyou more

iloveyou the most!!!

2010-05-21T16:35:00.002+08:00

hi, i know it has been awhile since i last blogged. i really dont have anything to blog about. but today, a veryvery teary day for me.
im sorry if this is going to be abit emo. this is all i have left. im effing hurt and i dont even know who to talk to.
i dont know who to share this with, dont have any shoulder to cry on, dont even know who i can trust, been crying for the past 2 hours and my eyes are red. im sad plus angry and upset.

favourite boy,
i apologise for not saying this face to face cos i was really hurt just now. i dont know if you were ever going to read my blog but i just want to tell you that what happened just now was all misunderstanding. i was just talking to fafa about wanting to follow and paitao my netball training, but i have no friend then she said she'll go if i go. i asked you what time are you all gonna finish skating you said you don't know. then joe confronted me there, in front of everybody. do you know how shy i was? you didn't tell me you wanted to go so badly. i didn't say you can't go i just told george that i've netball. at that point of time i was already thinking of not going. i still can't accept the fact that he confronted me. not knowing my side of the story. and i was really hurt that you didn't even want to listen to my explanation. i asked you questions but you were there right in front of me staring . i dont know what you were thinking but you didnt answer. while i was crying just now i was thinking about you. did i hurt you, do you even care? no? why are you still here? why didnt you just go off with hadi and faz? maybe its my fault?

well if it is then im really sorry. i know you wanted to go so badly but maybe you were afraid to tell me? afraid i might not let you cos of this netball thing. but boy, i have no rights to not let you do what you like to do. im no one in your life. not your gf. we're just friends right. so i really have no rights. you want freedom? joe wants you to have freedom? then i let you have freedom. ok? if that's what you like. i dont want to be someone that controls your life. if you dont want to go then say no. i wont force you anymore. im sure you said i dont let you go thats why joe confronted me that way.

im sorry for whatever things i've done. no matter what boy i just want you to know that i still feel the same towards you, but.

2010-05-01T00:10:00.002+08:00

schoolhas started for me so theres no more slacking and waking up late for me.

met new friends and old ones too. and and i love my classmates. the are the fucking best! and i dont know what it would be if they're not there. muahaha!

ngong.

i just want you to know that im just afraid you might leave me for no reason, it's happened to me three times already and im scared it would repeat.

sorry for being too protective and sensitive over the smallest things. i know you're just being yourself.

slowly but steadily we're just going to have to adjust to our differences. i want to be there for you. give you everything you never had. and make you happy in everyway that i can.

i really feel so stupid blogging about you when i know that you won't read it.

but who cares?

i dont know who to talk to and who would hear me.

sometimes when people talk i listen but when i talk people seem to ignore.

why? cos they say i talk rubish. rightttt. thenwhat they are talking are not rubbish?

pfft!

there are alot of things that i want to spill but i just don't feel like it today.

some other day maybe?

no matter what, i still love my classmates m hanging around with.

they ae just a bunch of awsome people and class would die i they're not there.

who cares if they don't liste to me. i just sit one side and listen to them spill all the stupid things, be it

dancing, jokes,whatever, in the end they still made my day.

p/s: the best i ever had, give you everything, no, you don't have to ask.

2010-04-07T12:37:00.002+08:00

i know its been a while since i last blogged. BORED!!!!

im not busy but just lazy.

there are alot of things happening.

alot of hurtful things.

why do boys always get in the way?

spoils my day. FCUK!

now i know why you've changed.

you should've told me what. hmms at least i wont be wondering why.

but what i said all this while were true okay.

just hoped you'd be back like the old one. happy go lucky.

imy.

and i obviously can't wait for school to start. 5 more days to go eyyy!!!

can meet new friends again.

but for sho' im gonna be anti social at first. huahua.

okay.

gtg bye.

2010-03-10T00:47:00.002+08:00

i still miss kiehl. and i still am crying when i think of him.

but its good to see that he still talks to me every now and then.

i just hope that he would come back and end my misery.

all saw how happy i was when he came down.

and i cried foolishly when you bam disturbed me.

fucking embarrasing.

i still love the way he dress, i miss hugging that jacob black's body.

i still remember how shy we were when we first met that we didnt talk to each other.

and the words you said.

but its sad that all has gone down the drain just like that.

in case you dont know kiehl.

i still feel the same towards you.

i may not be the one you think of everyday but you are surely,

always in my mind. day and night. awake or asleep.

ismysm.

p/s: kiehl is my blanket.

2010-02-26T14:41:00.003+08:00

cos i think he is adorable. huahua.

love his smile. its so cute and the way he sings just melts me.

okay. i actually wanted to update two days ago but i was super tired. yesterday, computer jam.

fcuked up!.

ok so.

lets start from tuesday night. i talked otf with ashym. till 3 plus then

i wanted to call somebody else but his hp was off. idk why.

then, i read eclipse till i fell asleep. woke up at 6 plus going 7 to text ashym

whether he's going to school or not. he called me and said that he's not going to school. so i asked him to meet

me at sembawang, met him at macD and yes! like finally i had hotcakes for breakfast.

then amaliya came down also to eat breakfast, tapi ashym blanje.

i pity him seh. kesian tkde duit mkn. okay after that lepaked at my house then bussed down to 682. then, at 7

i went to sembawang to watch my friend play takraw. i was so the nantok ready siaaa.

but tkpe tahan je lah.

after i reached home.

i didnt bother to online or whatsoever. mandi tros tdo.

was superduper tired lah.

then

semalam. i went to chong pang to buy bird food.

i asked bestf faizal to accompany me. after i went to buy food.

we wlked from yishun to admiralty.

yes imagine that. dari chong pang tau ppl.

we walked at gambas there. then suddenly got this part ah.

the gate open know.

thenthen i ask faizal ape ni uh? boleh masok ke?

then die kate entah skali short cut eh boleh tembos the other side.

then i say eh? best nye? jom uhh nk masok?

so we walked in uh. the sign says this is a dont know lah what.

then it says youu're entering at your own risks.

then we walk uhh sepanas2 nye.

boleh terbakar seh.

then sekali you guys know what is that place?

its's the hotspring. huahua.

so we sat down cos got wind.

then we wanted to try the hot spring but we don't know how.

thw bestf say. tkpe kite tengok org buat ape then kite ikot. so we did uh.

we took this one bucket os water then pour on the kaki. KIMAK! PANAS GILE LAH.

haha! its was very funny ah.

then we soaked our legs in the hot water.

but obviously we waited for the ater to cool down abit ah.

then after that we continued our journey to admiralty.

kesian faizal penat. haha!

it was fun uh.

thank you bestf for temaning me. hee.

p/s: love me love me say that you love me baby.

2010-02-23T23:33:00.002+08:00

im back again. cos i totally forgot to post something. nyet!

okk. i went to lepak at 682 just now. as usual.

took pictures with lya,ju and tasha

was damn bored lah. huahua.

there you go.

and to this bbygirl

I MISS YOU SO MUCH!! haha! yesyesyes.

she came down to slack with us. since da brape lame tk turun.

haha! rindu bangat. ah ni mesti kau suke lah eh aku upload gmbr kau.

mesti punye aku tau.

btw aku nye choc eh. ferrero rocher.

jgn lupe tau. aku da snap twice choc kau. lol!

so yeah. actually i forgot to put this picture in the last post. so yeah.

i decided to repost.

she wants her pic in my blog badly.

so that she knows i miss her. lol!

i always do baby.

but aku rindu tamtam lebih uh. you know that.

sorry yerr.

"da lame tk bermesre drg kau mcm gini."

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

2010-02-23T22:49:00.002+08:00

i miss you kiehl.

today was supposingly to be the 2 months we contact.

but kiehl's gone now.

not really done lah. he's still there. somewhere there.

he started to reply my msges. and im happy that he did that.

i still miss him dearly.

still cry when i think of him everyday.

haissh. still hoping he would come back.

and btw.

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY TO MY DD ROMEO.

stay happy always yeah.

and thanks for cheering me up about kiehl.

p/s: kiss me with kiehl's

2010-02-12T12:43:00.002+08:00

i tried to be strong everyday.

but theres no difference.

everyday i tried to avoid doing stuffs that reminds me of him

avoid talking to people that reminds me of him.

but i cant.

it's hard. very hard.

idk how he can easily get over it.

he didnt talk to me neither did he smile at me. worst things worst,

he didnt even want to look at me.

today is already the fourth day im acting like a zombie.

everyday i cry remembering back the memories with him.

every night i would text him a gdnight msg but still no reply from him.

i cant simply forget him just like that.

he left too soon.

evryday i read his messages he used to send.

he didnt mean it did he?

over and over again his last words repeated in my head like a

cd player,

"i don't feel the same anymore"

with no explanation

i was lost.

everyday i feel the same. PAIN.

and i want only kiehl to cure it.

only he can. nobody else but him.

sorry crisfaz, you can't simply ask me to forget kiehl

that easily and think of you.

i just can't.

im still trying my best to move on.

but i still wished he would come back.

p/s: why is getting over him fucking hard? kiehl? islysm and imy badly.

2010-02-11T16:24:00.002+08:00

2010-02-10T23:34:00.000+08:00

miss

KIEHL

so much. :(

2010-02-09T22:59:00.004+08:00

as per normal. i went out to slack.

it started out ok cos i went to meet syahir

under his block.

and he is my laughing medicine. i didnt actually laugh just smiled a little.

and sorry syahir i didnt pay attention to your story.

i wasn't myself.

so we went to sit and "watch" watchmen.

then came murni slacked awhile then meet ana sayang at rc.

then the rest came.

i was listening to ana's mp3 when the pain started attacking me again.

i held back my tears and while hearing the song that reminds me of him,

the song of my message tone when he texts me.

and i couldn't control it anymore. i just let it out.

slowly my tears were dripping.

i stared blankly while blur visions of my friends laughing out loudly

are fading away.

staring at this place where he usually comes from when

he comes down to play soccer.

the pain is unbearable now. so i just kept on crying cps that's all

i can do.

i was so weak. idk why.

so weak that i didnt realise how hungry i was.

i decided to follow ana, botak and wanporn to buy food. i tried to laugh

but it was harder than i thought. very hard indeed.

i just put on a fake smile all the way.

went to eat then i went to street soccer court all by myself.

i forgot about the pain i was having on the afternoon.

but as soon as i reached the court, the pain strucked me again.

HE was there.

i turned before he saw me and walked to the other side of the court where my friend was playing soccer.

he knew the story but not fully.

i walked to him angry, frustrated almost crying.

and he gave me a very hateful remark. as if he didnt care.

wtf?

so i sat where no one sat. alone.

listening to songs again.

thinking of the times that we used to have.

the love that was almost there.

tears rolled down my eyes and they're not stopping,

they can't stop. i cant control the painfulness inside anymore.

it hurt so badly.

i dont know who to talk to. nobody there would even want to listen to me.

no one i can turn to and have a shoulder to cry on.

so i just cried alone.

solo meo.

the lights went off as the clock strikes 10

i walked off and sat at gateball with bestf and friends.

i was waiting to get a chance to see him for one last time before i go home.

at least smile and make my day.

waited, waited and waited.

then i realised he's not gonna come.

kiehl's gone.

p/s: just a week ago you were my baby, now i dont even know you at all.

2010-02-09T15:46:00.002+08:00

even though you broke my heart

i know you still think about me from time to time,

when you're alone, i know im in your thoughts

i know a part of wishes you never broke my heart

and throw me away

i know when someone says my name

i come to your mind,

but for me, even though you broke my heart

i still love you, when im all alone you're the only

one i think about... and i sit on my bed wishing

how bad i want you to be beside me right now,

i cry for the time that

you were almost mine

i cry for the memories you've left behind

i cry for the pain,

the lost, the old, the new,

i cry for the times

i thought i had you,

this broken heart

was stronger than

the words i wish

you never meant.

p/s: he doesn't feel the same anymore.

2010-02-07T22:42:00.003+08:00

yesterday, went out with bam, yaya, ana, wan, spike, dd, mario,

botak to town. we were suppose to follow botak go do tattoo

but the shop was closed. so all of us went to eat,

at macd then trained down to dhoby ghaut.

there we were supposed to go watch a movie but the timing was too late

and some of us cant make it as some of them have probation.

then came today, again went to town yaya's sis b'dae. it was super

gerek lah. her mum treated sixteen people at a restaurant. WOW!

imagine spending that lot of money. hmm.

after that trained home lah.

didnt get to meet kiehl yesterday and today. today is the third day already.

i miss him so much. but what to do. he has his schoolwork to do.

i just need to be patient. only god knows how much i miss him.

the other day, i think its a thursday, i wanted to go home,

but then at 8 like that kiehl came down to play soccer.

so my plans of wanting to go home early changed.

haha! i just cant resist watching him play soccer.

yes superpookie tengok die tendang bola pun can make my day. i cair ok.

so yeah i just stayed back just so i can

watch kiehl play soccer. just one match is good enough for me.

anws. somebody please please BELANJE me watch movie

i still dont know what to watch

anybody?

p/s:kiehl is missed badly. :'(

2010-01-23T02:27:00.003+08:00

i was superbored in the afternoon just now.

slacked with ashym,ju and amar at admiralty.

waiting to go netball. so i took lotsa pictures. bahhhh.

then everybody went off and i went to woodlands library to meet a friend

watches saw 5 for awhile then decided not to

watch already. i cant stand the bloodiness.

after that went down to go for a smoke but then two N.I.E teachers interviewed us.

they were asking lotsa stuffs about malay language. we asnwered back in rojak language. it

was kinda funny actually.

then off to netball. this is hard for me to describe. training was fun.

but superduper tired. this is one thing i dont like about sports.

you'll get hurt. i fell today. i hurt my hamstring and my left ankle. damn it.

i think im super weak to do anything.

but im trying my best here to post something. so after training walked to woodlands inter.

kiehl's waiting for me. he wanted to send me home cos we didnt get to meet the

whole day as i have netball and he got farewell party for his close friend. dont sad2 k.=)

i know you are close to her. but what to do kn? she has to. so then reached sembawang slacked for

awhile. looked at the time for quite alot of times then when its twelve i turned to kiehl and said

HAPPY 1 MONTH KNOWING EACH OTHER.!

but he didnt show that he was surprised. idontknow lah.

maybe he's just too tired after a having sucha tiring day.

nvm i forgive him. lol!

he had badminton competition and i can see that he was

super tied so yeah. bid goodbye and off home. now blogging and thinking at the same time.

im about to cry. im about to lose someone once important to me. bye ah.

p/s: i so hope i wont lose you. you may not know that the slightest things you do can make my day. :)

2010-01-14T22:42:00.005+08:00

sitting in front of the lappy with nothing in my head.

everything is just blank. applied for school again and now waiting for the results.

im not gonna do anything for four mnths, believe it or not.

one word. BOREDOM.

didn't do much today. nothing happened, just slacked and watched soccer.

well, i didnt really watch uh. i played so called netball/basketball on the grass with ajeerah, said and kiehl.

it was tiring though we had a good laugh.

the boys won, of course -.-"

boys are always better than girls in whatever. i cant deny in that.

but not exactly all ah, we girls just have to work harder, i guess?.

got to see kiehl today but didnt get to talk much, i dont think we talked at all, lol! disruption ah.

gosh i missed him so much, but as long as i got to see him, im fine.

went home around 9, sorry i didnt say bye to you, you were busy playing.

so bussed home and now sitting in front of the lappy typing craps.

dil, i should've known that you've not change.

you're still lying to me.

im shocked to hear that from other people's mouth.

when i asked you, you said that you were slacking at your cousin's place.

i remembered clearly on the day, you told me you were slacking at acit's place.

i said that sekali you over there with another girl. and you said no.

c'mon lah, how long more are you gonna do this.

it's not working okay. some day im still gonna find out the truth from

somebody else if not from you. why wouldn't you wanna let me go right?

stop this bullshit ah. please. you're not going anywhere if you keep doing this.

what are you going to achieve from that right? tsk tsk tsk.

i don't understand what's his motive of not wanting to let me go

though i told him im not ready and was hoping he would let me go. well, just stay as friends?

you can do whatever you want then. i mean not that we're attached. but those feelings

i used to have for you has faded due to your behaviour. what if we're attached? is it still gonna be the same? i assume it's a yes.

p/s: see kiehl, this is why i don't want to go to him. he cheats. :/

i feel like breaking down. why am i so weak? can somebody just cheer me up?

do anything. please. im begging. i hate this feeling. my heart hurts alot. i feel cheated.

veryvery cheated. i always tell you the truth eventhough it hurts. you wanted that right? but,

what happened to your promise? is it always going to be my fault? i told you everything ok.

please. stop this nonsense. we're going nowhere ok.

2010-01-14T05:19:00.002+08:00

i know that is 5.20 a.m now and i should be sleeping. but im not.

due to this guy ah.

yes cute right? i know. this is steven low.

he made me stay up with him just to apply for ite again.

so troublesome cos put the first choice same cause i wanted that course

then he said to be fair put 2nd his choice.

so yeah i listened to him. very troublesome. i dint have to take that long to decide the first time but he,

yes him, you STEVEN LOW

make me think again and again and again.

so yeah. finally we decided and we submitted.

i listened to him cause he was always there for me as i was for him.

see friend i told you i stayed up to wait for you.

tk pecaye. see you soon. bonga bonga dulu. HAHAHAHA!(inside joke)

2010-01-14T00:20:00.003+08:00

i shall say that he is one great guy. for now. i hope that its gonna last for a long time. not that we're together or what. you say that girls are veh troublesome? yeah and boys are just so stubborn and hard-hearted. HAHA!

anyways i didnt get to meet you today. i was hoping to see you before i went home. but i guess you were a few seconds late? imysm. i like to play with your hair. i like the way you make me smile whenever you put my hair in its place, i like the way you make me feel. idk what but it just keeps me going. everything has always been about you lately. i guess. for now and i hope its gonna last. but things are complicated now adays alot of probs that i'm facing. i mean we are facing . TSK ! how i'd wish i got to know you earlier. but its okay we're gonna work it out slowly. i'm gonna try to solve it myself. boohoo. remember know. friday you must watch me. i'll see you tomorrow i guess? goodnight kiehl blanket. whatever that means. ;)

2010-01-13T00:47:00.003+08:00

okay. hello again. sorry for the lack of update. i havent been using the laptop for quite some time cos i see the need to. so right now im updating upon bobby's request. ape je lah. want to read other days can read what. okay im gonna make this a short one cos i only got less than 5 minutes. yesterday, i went to fetch bobby as usual then slacked with him at my hometown and around 4 plus board the bus to admiralty and went to meet ashym bear a.k.a baby ashym.
slacked till 9 plus and home. I SWEAR I DONT KNOW WHAT TO UPDATE ABOUT YOU BOBBY! TSK !

and now CHEY ! bobby knows how to play taiti ready eyy. menang people ready without cheating uhh. HAHA! goodnight bobby. thanks for waiting just to read this crap. HAHA! BODOH UHH KAU. eh i mean pandai.(jgn arrogant uhh).
so i guess im spending my mundane day today at home just slacking alone i guess. till here. so long guys.

i wish i wish with all my heart to *like* bobby for a very long time.
goodnight bobby see you soon aye. ^^

2010-01-08T12:27:00.002+08:00

okayy hi. i know ive been gone for a very very long time that people might actually think im dead. well life is a boredom to me now. cos no school=no life. =.=
im so fking bored at home with nothing to do everyday. of all the others would probably be schooling so im stuck at home. all alone. CB! well talking about school i miss school so much. yeah. TSK ! i just wish i could turn back time. so anyways. lets just updateupdate about whats been happening lately.

boys always spoils everything at the end of the day. bleahhhhh fcuked up ah. i really shouldnt blog about them cos there's no point. he wont read my blog at all. fcukity fcuk fcuk!!
well. i really dont know what to post so these are the crap that i can come up woth. sorry people.
i probably should get going. i need to go mandi to fetch bobby. so long.

DEAD DEAD DEAD

2009-12-01T00:12:00.002+08:00

OK GUYS. EHH!! OOPS!! WHY CAPS EH? LOLL!! JAP JAP!! ADJUST SIKIT.
aha! better. anws i know i know its been years i last post something. and FINALLY! attachments is over. woohoo!! aku boleh enjoy lah siol.

ok cut the crap aites. been sad these past few days angry and heartbroken. bleahhhhhh. stoopid nazirul dinie lied to me(in the stoopid kinda tone only he and abg nanial knows) heehee.

i feel easy,happy,joy,fun being by your side..with full of laughter and more:) serious..but..
But..the feeling of love from me to you is not there..i cant do it..

and so on and so forth....... tkya nk kepo eyy.

WATTAH3LL!
NABUI CHUIBUAI KIMI TAK BUIH PUIH LENG(in that stoopid kinda tone again) lols!

seh! best pe seh main tipu2. apo cakop. lu bikin gua pusing banget.
well anyways. thanks for temaning me to school just now nazirul dinie. i appreciate it lots. i know things are not going so well for us but i know we will find our place one day. i hope so lah ehh. i love you. do you? *kruk kruk*

i'm sorry for the atttitude that day. i really shouldn't do that towards you. it was so foolish of me. but for what i know is that im just too devoted to you. haissh. anything and everything you do will be the most wonderful thing. im glad that i get to meet you just now. your eyes make me fall deeply in love with you everytime you look at me. your smile just makes me melt. your touch makes me weak to stand by myself. your hug just makes me want to stay there and dont go anywhere. your kiss just keeps me coming back for more.

please just please dont ever do that again ok.?*kruk kruk*

before i end this post i just wantd YOU to know. this is not the first time eh kau paitao aku. aku diam diam. tapi mcm da melampau tau tk? ok bedek. aku tk diam uhh. aku tau aku da bilang kau. please uhh k. tkmo penting kan die je uhh. kau da kate kat aku eh kau nk jumpe kite. beyy at last kau paitao. sikitsikit je matae kau. kalau kau binget nan die gadoh ke ape tau pulak kau nk carik aku. please uh seh tkmo mcm gini uhh. tkmo penting kan matae kau dari kawan okay? think girl think. whatever it is no matter brape binget aku nan kau. nothing will change our friendship k. lots love.

ok bye peoples!! take care dont take drugs.

gone for good

2009-11-11T12:55:00.003+08:00

today is my off day. so i decided to blog. its been years i updated my blog.

so yeah. going out today to catch a movie.

im still not sure what movie to watch.

got my payyyyyy. and is extremely happy. its not gonna last long lah.

anws. im gonna enjoy my last day with the cousin. cos of some problems faced.

we're gonna stop contacting and seeing each other.

so yeah.

work is tiring but i just need to tahan another week then imma free birddddd.

woohooooo!!! im glad that im the only one still surviving in this company.

idk what happened too my other friends.

aiyo krg. kan 2 bulan je. then krg da tkya nk pk lagi psl skola.

cmne nk graduate nnt?

cheyyyy mcm phm sia akuuuu.

ms tan told me that i was the only one left in the company and i was super shocked.

i didnt know what happened to the rest, no one updated me.

nvm lah. aku da lah slalu cabot skola tk masok class sume. attendance terok.

tapi keje ok je. HAHA! alaarh dpt duit pe. lol!

so yeah.... i'm still thinking whether to continue working there or not. im like so used to working there. idk what will happen eh kalau dabes attachment. BAAAAHHHHH~

BTWBTW! i miss NUR AMALIYA NAHIEDA BTE HASNI ^^

k lah k lah. gtg mandiiiii. im going out.... spending my gajiiiiii. HAHA!

p/s: boy, i wont give up on you. we'll meet again someday when it's the right time.

2009-10-13T11:31:00.002+08:00

hello lovelies. im having an afternoon shift today so i decided to blog. at first i thought i start work at 12 ao i woke up at ten, the boy gace me a wake up call. so sweeeeet, he say it's his amanah. HAHA! whatever it is i called shop to re-confirm my schedule and my shop in charge says i work afternoon shift so i come at 2. haiyo. i thought of going back to sleep and wake up at 12 but then i cant sleep so yeah. i decided to update my blog. work is tiring but fun. i dont know why i like to work morning shift. time passes very quickly. very fun. afternoon like mendakkkkk. sumpah. the boy is going jalan raye today so cant meet. wth? da nak abes baru nk jalan raye. jalan raye sampai next month uhh? HAHA!

anws i miss you alot! walaupun semalam da jumpe i still miss you everyday. i hope it lasts.
you kidnapped my heart.

oh yaa. i was thinking about cik noi and cik lala. yes our mums. hmmss. and everytime i think of them i grew more afraid. waduhhhhh. eeek!

fucking assholes!

2009-10-10T23:21:00.005+08:00

work work work!
been busy with work for the past few days thats why had no time to update my blog.
anyways. yeah attachments are doing fine. i hope the rest are still survive. imiss UR0901L. yeahhh. everyday go to work then home and sleep. no life ehh. lol! and the customers are so fucked up! you need to be a good actor in order to work in retail. lol! they are so choosy "umm do you have a new piece?" then after that oh its ok i dont want it ready. wtf?!!!!! nvm. after work im tired. not tired of working. but! tired of pretending to smile. haha! but nvm its only for two months. whEe!! then im a free birdddddd.

okok. im lucky im in love with my cousin. LOL!
this was the first time after so many years we actually talked to each other. we've nvr talked before. he asked for my number when i went raye at his place which i had done so many times before that but he's not at home. so yaa. and we started to contact each other. after a few days we got closer. and this picture was the first time i went out with him. ♥

he is sikh and i am chinese. :)sheril ♥ nazirul

in future if we ever lost contact, i want you to know that i love you alot cousin or not. :)

read those little letters i gave you. remind me if i forget. alaarhs.

you know what im talking about.

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
i love this boy up here

NAZIRUL DINIE♥

p/s: i always smile to myself whenever i read you msges or when i think about the silly stuffs that we always laugh about. lots love lots love. :) anyways who says cousins cant fall in love with each other?

2009-09-24T13:01:00.005+08:00

i got a baby mickey. it's so cute and cuddly. my friend bought it for me. i got it for freeeee. WHheE~
my little minnie is not lonely anymore. she found her boyfriend. HAHA! i used to hug a goodluck carebear to sleep. but yesterday after i got the mickey mouse i hug both to sleep. HAHA!!
this is my very first mickey mouse someone has ever given to me. and yes yes yes i am very happy. HAHA!! thanks kawan.

aiming for the big one. xD!

anws

i miss this girl right here. yes i do!!! HAHA! this is elly. and yeah she is the most funnest girl lah. she's very the manje also. heE! i miss her cos we havent met for like a week or so? and today! im meeting her!!!!! YAYY!!! haha!! she said she's craving for OCK! how cute. this are some pictures we took at her house. we were damn bored and couldn't sleep. plus it was raining. bleahhhhh. we had FUN laughing at each other while taking the pictures sampai batt low. then we changed handphones. as usual this are not all pictures lah. like i said. SOME je pe..... okayy.

p/s: waiting for the boy's msg. :)

2009-09-23T12:53:00.003+08:00

yesterday was amaliya's birthday. i didnt buy her anything though. nothing special. just a brownie that stated happy birthday. but i ran away from her to buy that thing. eh susah tau cos she always stick with me. wherever i go. i walked away from her. awhile later i turn back and see she's following me. but yeah i managed to surprise her. HAHA! we went to watch movie. with one of my friend and one of hers. after that, went to bugis for sheesha with her ite amk friends. ABEH ABEH got big gadoh seyy. sedih seyy die. it's her b'dae and you guys make her cry. aku yg nk comfort die pun aku nangis jgk. it's like so sedih seyyyyy. WADUHHHH. but it's okay lah k.
here are some pictures we took. not all cos im very lazy lah. HAHA! nah tngok lah nie.

this is aidil. he's a great friend. and my camwhore partner. weeeee!!! HAHA! he is very friendly and clicks cepat with people he dont know. like meeeee. lol! and liya's friends. HEH!

im as tall as him ok!

ok not! i lied. he's the galah

here she is the b'dae girl and also my girlf and my twin. HAHA!! this picture was taken kat tempat wayang. kite mcm belo gitu luhh. mcm happy gile. HAHA!! masok je ketawe ketawe due org. and this picture kite tk plan nk amek gini. mmg automatic sendiri. HAHA! great minds think alike. kate kembar.

it was nothing much but yeah. i hope she loved it. HAPPY B'DAY SAYANG.

she didnt want to eat it. then it melted. HAHA! terpakse lah kene makan.

LAST BUT NOT LEAST I WANT YOU GUYS TO KNOW. I LOVE THIS GIRL ALOT. NOTHING AND NO ONE WILL OR CAN SEPARATE US AGAIN. HEE!! I LOVE HER I LOVE HER I LOVE HER I LOVE HER I LOVE HER I LOVE HER I LOVE HER I LOVE HER ALOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!:) :)

P/S: i got a new eyecandyyyyyyy :D!

2009-09-19T20:31:00.004+08:00

okok. here i am. i promised to update a proper one. and you see i've changed my skin.
and yes yes yes i did it by myself OK!! well not exactly myself uhh. bestie help out abit lah. abit je. kimak no more. LOL!

ok here's something i want to share with you guys.
BESOK RAYE!!!! ya ok so what? haha!
i was wiping the cermins uhh kat living room just now. then i step onto something. it felt keras. like kayu seyy. so i looked down and saw THIS!!!!!
can see or not?? it's a fucking dried up lizard lah siol!! GELI!!!!! sumpah geli gile lah seyyyyy!!
then i use the kain i use to wipe the cermin and go kibas2 the lizard. da kering seyy. mcm kene goreng. SERIOUS!! haha!! then i told someone about this then die kate abeh mkn?WTH?! haha!
anws i cant wait for raye. DAPAT DUIT LAH!!!!
okayy.

next topic:

semalam aku kene screen ngn police lah kengkawan.
AINK! FAKE! haha!!
wells my friend here. die police lahhhhh. then my two besties ddk mcm drug addict. they so sejuk cos they "SICK". then shahdan nie nak step mcm screen org uhh. when i wanted to amek gmbr with him he said this to them.

SHAHDAN: hey guys why both of you like drug addict like that? kalau CID dtg boleh kene siaaa.

then, i started laughing non-stop. cos i know uhh KAUWRABAL APE? hahahahahaha!!! my besties are so cute lah. HAHA! they always make my day. teehee!!

ok raye raye raye. mcm tk sabar tapi mcm malas pun ade lah. i only have one week before i start my attachment. tkpa uhh. attachment pun DAPAT DUIT OIIIII!!!
OK IN CASE YOU GUYS WANT TO KNOW.
my attachment is at MISS SELFRIDGE AT WISMA.
and no im not selling fridge ok. HeE do drop by sometime mane tau dpt discount ke??^^
NOT!! haha!! kalau krg dtg looking for me i say uhh i don't know you. ok bye!

P/S: i've got my eyes on you and had a crazy kinda crush on you. heE. awak so cute. xD!

I'VE GOT MY EYES ON YOU.

2009-09-19T11:01:00.002+08:00

I WILL UPDATE A PROPER POST SOON.
SORRY FOR NOT UPDATING. I HAVE NOTHING TO BLOG ABOUT.
I JUST WISH A MIRACLE WOULD HAPPEN SO I CAN BLOG ABOUT IT.
ANYWAYS.
SELAMAT HARI RAYA PEOPLE!!!
xD!

cant help it

2009-09-01T22:48:00.003+08:00

everytime i hear this particular song it reminds me of you.
cos we were listening to this song when we were slacking.
before you told me you cant help it.
why did you started it? i want to know. hmms.
i felt so comfortable.
thats why i didnt stop.
i was comfortable with you. eventhough i told my friends i've never had feelings for you.
but after what happened it somehow let out inner feelings. which i never knew i had.
why you'd do that when you know that you're in love with someone else?
i wished everything didnt happen. but somehow i liked it. being someone in your live. now you left me stranded.
i guess i should let it go. be both made a mistake. and some we wish we didnt make.
goodbye.

ANW!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NADIAH!!
MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE OKAY.
IM ALWAYS HERE IF YOU NEED ME.
AKU TAU AKU SELALU IKOT KAU PUN.
MCM DOGGGG. HAHA! HOPE YOU AND ASHAR LAST LONG AITE.
LOVES.

you are my moviestar can i be your director?

2009-08-30T22:17:00.002+08:00

okay.

i just got home from meeting phyl just now,

after a very very very long time of not meeting her. i sure miss her alot eh.

talked alot about a person.

HAHA!

i still cant believe that the person is still like that.

wells its ok. that person is my friend too. so yeah. i wont say much luhh k.

after talking for quite sometime. we decided to go home

thats when this stupid dog almost made me die.

HAHA!

okok. the story goes like this.

twice upon two time.

ok not. HAHA!

there this dog. two dogs actually. we were walking half way when this dog without leash walk towards us. and yes yes yes! im afraid of dogs like duhhhhh!!! idk why luhh but im just scared of this small little tiny thing. okok back to my story. i was walking with phyl when this dog come towards us. i immediately grab her hand and walked infront of her. i was waliking behind her before that. then she pushed me and kept asking me to just walk just walk. i was so afraid that i didnt look back. then i asked her. omg fuck fuck fuck! wheres the dog siaa. she said idk! then turned to check. she said behind us only. then i turn my head abit to check. wtf!!! yes its directly behind us. damn close!!! CB CB CB! i can die siaaaa. ok diam. then after that we stop at this tempat luhh. ade lah macam pondok gitu. what do we call it in english eh? HUT? idk seriously. haha!! and both of us climb on the chair. then i squat da mcm ape seyyy. i was shaking like hell.and laughing at the same time. wth right?
then i walked home alone still afraid that stupid dog will follow me. LOL!LOL!LOL!

OK BYE~

BUTCH

2009-08-30T19:24:00.002+08:00

hie.
i've got something to say.
i know i told you that i hated you but actually i dont. i just am still upset that you cheated me back then and that i dont trust you anymore. yes we were happy. i admit, i was happy when i was with you. but you cheated me somehow. now that i have given you a chance to talk. i hope you've changed eh. i dont want anything from you.
i dont want you to return to me. i just want to recall
all the memories that we had.
HAH!

MOVIESTAR FROM HOLLYWOOD :D

2009-08-27T22:21:00.002+08:00

he's so cute.
but i dont get to see him everyday.
booooo!!
nvm.
hmms im damn bored tooday and i dont know what to do.
onlining was sucha bore. i've nothing to do. so i decided to blog.
can somebody bring me out to watch a movie or something? please?? pretty please?
oh yaa guys. i've got something to tell you.
I MISS MY BESTF MUHD FAIZAL TAKMANDI BIN JUNAIDI.
KURAP!!!!! I RINDU YOU!! HAHA!

anws.
sch sch sch.
im getting tired of sch thats why i rarely go to sch anymore.
yes yes yes its only a few more months left until attachment.
speaking of attachment! WOOHOO!!!! i finally got hired! haha!!
at MS SELFRIDGE!
coooool lah bacens.
ALHAMDULILAH.
tapi jgn turon to find me ehk?
im shy. haha!!
ok bye. i've not much things to blog about lah. i just decided to though.
goodbye lovelies.
xD!

the chemistry is hard to find

2009-08-26T12:23:00.002+08:00

hello.
hello.
:) i know that i avent been updating for like a thousand years!!
okay. sorry. i've been busy plus im lazy to update. i dont know what to update about. nothing special is happening in my life for the past 8 months.

yeah!!! guess what?? i've been single for like 8 months and counting. haha!
im glad. i guess.

okay. i wouldn't want my blog to be hungry ok. so i will update daily. but i cant promise lah k. haha!!
thats if i reach home early. not lazy or not busy. haha!!

i've got something to say.!
I LOVE MY HAIR!!! can?
lol! okok. im currently at home blogging. im meeting elly later at yishun. near her school then most probably will be slacking with her lah.

this year, i cant believe that i met most of my ex. haha!! wth?
ahhhh... skarang baru tau nk ckp action. dulu aku gile2 kan korang abeh kau buat dek je ngn aku.
amek kau. haha!!

i wonder where did all my love went. haha! im not interested i guess. why??
because i also dont know why. haha!! ok bye lah i want to go mandi.
im meeting elly at two. we're gonna have some fun!

P/S: somebody that stays at elly's house is cute. sorry i was action the last time.haha!!

lack of updation

2009-07-28T22:56:00.002+08:00

im so sorry i've not been updating for quite a long time. i swear i dont know what to update about and i've no mood. hmm. im waiting for something surprising to happen then i'll update a proper one.
for now.

LIFE SUCKS!

im always happy when i meet you.

k bye.

the bait goes in first, then the fishes come.

2009-07-18T13:15:00.000+08:00

went to play netball yesterday night. and i cant cocentrate as somethings bothering my mind. i dont know what but something is. i rarely smile and didnt think i had fun. alot asked me why but i just force to smile and said nothing. i played and left early i sont know why i wanted to. went to meet faisal at the bus stop near his house. was angry with him but when he reached i was smiling. hmm. sent me till outside my house then left. hmm. he always make me smile. we'll see eh awak! haha!

okayy. today i got nothing to do. so i decided to update.

i guess moving on or leaving you was a great idea. i got advices from david and yeah. it helps.

you're not the only fish in the sea. even if you're beautiful enough to attract me. you're like the beatiful but poisonous kinda fish. yeah. thats what i describe you as. dont say that you're not jealous or dont care because from my point of view. you are. deep inside. even david said so. i hate the way you're so sarcastic towards me. if you say that im happier with faisal then think again. did you treat me like how he treated me? better than him? or worst? bleah..... everythings over now anyway. im fine without you. always is and always will.

plus yeah im happier now. no one to stop me from msging anyone. but honestly. i miss you somehow. i often cry when i listen to songs that reminds me of you. but to hell with it. i've moved on. and dont want to turn back to look at you and feel all the pain and hurt you've caused. goodbye syahmi.

why is it so hard to find someone perfect??

erghh!!

i want my white chocolate kinder bueno awak!!

haha!!

awak is sooooo cute.

heE!!

im not missing you

2009-07-15T03:01:00.002+08:00

its now 3:02 AM and im still not asleep yet. been chatting and webcaming with ade lah org tu. and umm i just stopped crying cos org tuu slalu make me smile and laugh.
yes yes yes i havent got the mood for last two days. i also dont know why. but i've never showed it until today.
i let it all out at once so everything that i kept doesn't haunt me anymore.
i got a new eye-candy. heh!!
okayy crapp i blogged just for the sake of updating. i know i know might as well dont blog kn. alaarhhh!! biar luhh. hmmss
still online and webcaming with ade lah org tuu.
and umm. he made me smile somehow. yayy!
but deep down im still upset.
k uhh. bye.
i'll update a proper post soon uhh. chiaows!

UNSPOKEN

2009-07-13T19:27:00.003+08:00

today i went to school with erni and dayaa. i woke up at 5.30 early kan tau. cos syahmi called me and kejut. mcm terpranjay pulak die kejot. cos he didnt text me ckp nk kejot so i wasnt expecting him lah. then ade lah org tuu pun kejot princess die eh.^^ haha!! i smiled when i heard your text tone. lol! you say that you waorking then nk tido so yeah. surprise eh.? haha! cute cute. due. so trained to woodlands took 168 da sampai tamp steven call kate baru bgn so he ask me to go first. oh yaa i forgot to mention. when i just left the house nadiah called me kate die mcm tnk gi skola. then i said ok. then die kate. she broke up with her matair. IS. then die nangis2 i ask her what happened then die kate panjang critenye. then i said so pegi sekolah uhh.

she came late and told me that her boyf ade lagi due matair behind her. mcm wth kn?
haissh..then she say she tumbok him lah gado gado kat public. kesian die. relax kae girl. hmmss.
what goes around comes around believe in karma. whee~andand i know you know whats left unspoken ehk!!^^ just shush!! okayy? haha!! so after school went home then tukar baju mkn then go out again wanted to go admiralty lepak with faizal tapi tk jadi uhh. so slacked kat daerah dekat2 ngn block jugak with liya and yat. kawan pri sch. and fren die and cousin die skali. then went to woodlands interchange just to send amaliya salam then naik bus balik. haissh. sedih sekali oiii. wth? abeh call tk angkat. tkkn nk tunggu sampai last bus kan? ade lah org tuu. waduhhhh.

oh yaa tadi pagi gi skola ngn dayaa ngn erni, erni suro msg satu laki ni name chris. then dayaa msg skali name nye claude. then i try msg uhh. die pun ckp namenye claude. then he msg msg me sume. like wth? non-stop plak tuu. then he called me i nvr pick up. actually tk prasan uhh. lol! and he's 28. HAH! abeh ajak jumpe. sape mau pi layan seyy. then he asked me wether im attached or not so i said yeah.-_- tros die tak reply. alhamdulilah.

da luhh. mcm tkde mood uhh nk blog. da out of idea. mendak lerrr.
dayaaaa. semalam i call you, you tk ANGKAT! HAHAHAHA!!(inside joke) lol!!
erni. but when i called BOBBY he said it wasnt true!! HAHA!!(inside joke lagik!

ok go. bye korang.

DILEMMA.

leave me alone.

2009-07-11T00:28:00.003+08:00

today went to school with nadiah. she said meet at 7 then she havent siap. she say she woke up late. so yeah.
i woke up at 6 supposesingly kene bgn kul 5.30 tapi tk sadar seyy. da luhh tido kul 3. hmm
so da mandi sume then die kate jmpe kul 8 nso i decided to tido back uhh.
suro ade lah org tu kejot.
otw to school pun tido jgk. dlm 168. so i ask adelah org tuu suro kejot kan lagi. kate princess. haha! lol!
then die ckp wahh! satu hari nie i need to wake u up like 3 times eh?? haha!
sorry luhh. and thanks btw :) not sume org baik tau. tk sume sanggup kejot pagi2 bute. lgipun timetable sucks!

lepas skola gi mkn jap ngn steven then balik.
gi admiralty lepak sampai kul 4 plus then jumpe syahmi and faisal(his bestf) not mine.
drg tngah mkn so kite pun kacau uhh. haha!
then lepas tuu gi jumpe hazique. long lost mp3 aku. haha!
then went to his house cos amaliya lapar gile nk mkn nasi lemak mak die masak.
after that went home changed and keluar balik. went to play netball.

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
im not ine the mood.
bye.

roses

2009-07-10T00:53:00.004+08:00

today went to school. alone. -.- wth kn?
nadiah reported sick so she's not cmg. naseb tuu aku da sampai skola da. kalau tk. mampos cikgu call rumah aku. da sampai tamp need to wait for steven at small mac. alone. abeh abeh kene kacau. suddenly nmpk dayaa. naseb die teman makan. she was with mas then mas need to go cos rushing for time. so after mkn tak abes. kite due org nie sakit perot. haha!! steven da nk sampai. then i say tunggu kat small mac. i go toilet. lol! buat business lah kan!! haha!! da keluar sedap sikit seyy!! da gi skola mendak nk mampos. sumpahhhhh... naseb baik sekejap je. then after school went to meet liya. da tuu die gado plak ngn shahdan.. sort siak! haha!! shahdan nk balik then she say kau da suro aku trn then kau nk balik aku da penat2 turon kau nk jln uhh? pk kelakar pe? then she marah2 him ready. then i ask whether want to go meet my kwn tk? cos at first die kate nk peg cos tnk lpk ngn shahdan.
then da bes gado she say aku tk tau uhh aku ngah sort nie. then japp agi ckp da uhh aku nk jalan uhh. so i ask nk gi mane? die kate nk balik uhh. aku tngah binget. then buat aku darah up seyy. so i said back to her kau da suro aku turon then kau nk balik uhh?! teros die dudok balik then ajk shahdan gi one corner bbl. bleah....

idk lah krg nie eh asek gadoh je hari2. aku naik bnget tau tk? hari2 spoil mood aku nk lepak tau.. sondol kang! so after drg bbl shahdan nk balik then we go meet my kwn.. uhh nie part luhh favourite!!!
lol!! kite due jln2 due org pun ketawe kekek2 seyy. kes tk ingat org nye. haha!! ketawe rabak2
sampai perot cram i shall say. haha!! then ddk bwh blk seblah street soccer ketawe mcm tmpt bpk kite. abeh abeh ade org tuu tk tau malu ckp diri sendiri cute!! haha!!! tapi boleh thn luhh jgk k.

da ketawe2 tukar tempat main tepuk2 pulak.. gile uhh kite then bbl2 psl family and life plus friends.. due2 hujan lebat nk mampos. mostly i do the talking and she do the crying. hmmss..
i was talking and crying when i taked about my side. wha if my parents leave me?? what do i do in this world? tk sempat ckp sorry sume. then drg pergi kite tk tau whether drg senang hati ke tk?? what they want us to do in future. drg jage kite, then kite mcm tk terfikir yg drg byk sacrifice untok kite.... kite kurangajar ngn drg tk fikir drg kecewe ke sedih ke... drg kerje penat2 then kite maen pakai je duit drg. haishhhh.. i've realised how much they mean to me. nothing else maters to me now except for them. i will try to change to be a better person and a better daughter. i promise. i will study hard and make you happy. iloveyou too mama & papa. :'(

BLOW ME A KISS

2009-07-07T23:10:00.004+08:00

had an event on saturday. taufik was the guest artist!! omgay! he's so...... nvm i shall not say
haha! he voice is so merdu.. ok i dont know whats that in english. sorry eh english haprak uhh.
bengap kn?? tau lah kan. anyways i cant stop listening to the song he sang titled sesuatu janji. haha! very sedap uhh. eh Faisal i get to see him lah k. i told you im going for a date with him!! haha! ok lame.

went to school today, woke up at 6 haha! but supposingly to wake up at 5.30... tapi tido "siang" tuu psl bgn pun "siang". but its better than last term. haha! for now uhh. tak tau lah kan nnt lame2 mcm mane. haha! somebody stayed till i woke up then went to sleep. abeh tk tau malu ckp sweet kn..-_-" ape je tau. yeah during sbm lesson had nothing to do. tengah plan2 nk jual ape then si cine matlap nie main ngn rambot die. buat rambot hellboy luhh mcm mcm uhh dekni. haha!! but i find it cute! lol! kelaka uhh. abeh amek tk satisfied amek lagi.. cerewet jgk kau nie eh.

steven low.

edaya kate kau kiyut!! sorry edaya

*wink*

so after school went home ngn dayaas and erni and faiz and nadiah tissue nie. heehee... i dont think she knows we took her picture while she was sleeping. edaya kate" eh die kuat tido eh, mcm kau."

i find the way she sleep so burok! haha! but cute. so i took her picture lah..

so nadiah. haha!!! nah tngk ni kau tido cute gile lah.

kiyut kan kau?? *kening naik naik*

so i dropped one stopped before admiralty to go meet bestfriends. lepak at rc.. liya darling bought me kinderbueno!!!! sweet luhh die haha! mcm tetibe je seyy belikn. romantic kan? ok tak. haha! then she went home to take money... lepaked with shahdan and talked about life.. then faifai and dasih came.... finally faifai pass me ceykain yg dasih buat kn kat kl. heE!!! he went to kl then made a hp keychain got my muke... sweet uhh dasih. haha! aku touched sia!!

so i tny faizal lah..

me:u, u gi genting tk beli kan i pape?

faifai: (smile...) tk uhh.. i ingt kn nk beli kan you roller coaster. xD!

joker lah bestfriend aku yg satu nie..

yg satu sweet dalam diam2..

i miss the old times uhh guys.

spent time like we used to again nk?

tapi sume busy ngn skola..

waduhhhh.

k lah. i gtg now.

update again some other time..

school school school..

*if you wash your body wash your hand too* lol!

hot hotter hottest

2009-07-05T22:18:00.006+08:00

alaaaarh!!! besok da start sekolah!! malasnye nk gi!!!! haishhh!! abeh abeh habis kul 5 seyy. hmms.! ikot kan hati tnk pegi je. waduhhhhh!! mintak kene chokeslam seyy.. but no... i need to go. rindu keng kawan lah kate kan. haha!!

syahmimimi you really shouldnt... nvm you.. i wont talk about you.

and oh yes yes yes i permed my hair. yeah. its been awhile though but i just didnt want to tell anyone. and whoever that guest is yeah i permed my hair. happy?

i dont know why i wanted to put their picture. or blog about them. okayy i swear i seriously dont know what to blog about. three of them are my friend.

the one in shades;faiz, was my secondary school classmate now in the same school as me.

the one in the middle;syahmi, i dont know how he got my msn.. yeah. we knew each other thru msn, and he once dated my kakak sdare. lol! armor says he's in love.. god knows with whom. heh! and umm he's a very nice sweet guy.(:

the one with long hair;faisal, was my primary school schoolmate. and he remembered me!!!! i saw him with faiz then he looked at me like someone he knows. so when i got closer to these soccer boys. he told me that he was eugene's batch-.-" bodohnye sheril... haha! and he's the one yg amek my adek sdare. slenger kan aku.. nvm.

i just wanna say that its a small world after all.('',)

last but not least I MISS MY BESTFRIEND YANG BERNAMA MUHD FAIZAL BIN JUNAIDI.!!! alot.
yeah i do!!! haishhhh. eventhough things have been tough for us we still make it thru together.
i really dont know if you feel the same but yeah.. i miss you alot. i tau lah kan maybe sekarang you dont need me anymore but i will still declare you as my bestfriens yang best skali!!^^
i maseh ade msg you send i dulu
we may be bestfriends last year, pretty good friends this year and dont talk often next year and dont even talk the year after that. so i just wanna say that u're special to me in every way. i ever regretted knowing and will cherish every moment that we spent. without supermok, there wont be a superpok :D
ily fren. goodnite..

i dont know if you still feel the same. but for what i know. i still feel it strong inside me and never will it disappear.
imissyou the one and only faizal superpok.

looks like a playboy

2009-07-04T00:21:00.002+08:00

i love my morning wake up hair. its so lovely curly haha! i just wish it was longer. hmmss

nvm can always grow. i can wait. so today i was suppose to go workshop but.......

then at night went to play netball at esso court. syahmi came. he wanted to surprise me but......

nvm. hahas i played netball and injured myself stupid me. my ankle hurts but nahhhh its not that bad though. went home with syahmi and his friend faisal which is my primary school friend but i kinda forgot about him. lol! he remembered that his buddy when he was in p5 was my adik sedare. wahhhh!!! not bad uhh you. so walked with him to the bus stop cos syahmi ran home first to take his things to send me home. awwwww so sweet. gaga!! oh yaa.. when i wanted to go to netball just now. sat with amaliya under this block beside mine and saw this thing on the wall

awwwww.... khabir wrote this and its still on the wall. that wall. that word "brakk" whatever it means was the witness for that night. haissh. imisshim but we're both busy with our own lives and school. misses khabir. text you or meet up soon kayy!!

miss it!

2009-07-02T23:29:00.004+08:00

amaliya and shahdan came to my house just now. then we were sitting down talking and looking for some secondary school stuffs then something struck my mind.....
i decided to wear our secondary school baju then brangan nk gi balek a.i
oh yaa oh yaa!! da ingat da mcm mane haha!!
first tngah ddk2 then talk about bags then inside one of my bag alaarh bag yg 77th street tuu lah
$2 je. ishk! bocor rahsia. ok nvm dalam bag tuu ade tie a.i
so i say jom uhh pakai baju a.i balik then amek gmbr. so we find uhh my sec sch uniform and skirt. dengan ronyok2 gitu jugak kite pakai. excited gile sia!!! sumpahhhh!!! we laughed and laughed lompat2 mcm budak bodoh. the first picture we took was so funny. we look so small in that uniform haha!! but i didnt want to post it. lol!!!
gosh how i miss my sec sch life. sec 1 slalu lepas skola lepak in school play catching. gaaaarghhhh!!!
i wanna go school hmssss.
ok guys here are some of the pictures. enjoyyyy :D

last but not least. astaga syahmi syahmi buat ape je tau kat mrt.

tsk tsk tsk!!! i miss you boy. hee..

those three words. i mean it. do you??

i love you.

can can can?

2009-07-02T16:20:00.002+08:00

see this guy??
heheh. imisshim.

alotlot. i know that i just met him yesterday but i still miss him.

bleahhh.. i miss scott more. that idiot. he nvr replies my msg damn you.

talking about idiot.

arshat. dont you know how to return my things back? wth??? my watch my headband my 15 bucks???

erghhhhh!!! then i msg tk tau nk reply da lah tibe2 tk lyn aku then contact ngn pompan lain. abeh maseh ade muke nk pakai barang aku tnk kasi balik. ape je....

haishhh..

anyways.. syahmi,

im looking forward to spending more time with you. eh eh eh? boleh boleh boleh?

haha imissyou lah kay? bbye. takecare later when having soccer tkmo injured pulak lah kay. hehs

take a bow

2009-07-02T16:02:00.003+08:00

i want to say thanks to this girl, Nunu sebab tolong tukar kan blogskin.

lol. abeh abeh kawan kawan tertinggal? hahaa!!

tkpe you did a great job. thanks eh. and and sorry sebab leceh. heehee.

aniways i just changed my blogskin if you havent noticed.lol!

having a hard time and problems. Nunu lupe nk copy kwn2 sorry guys if your link tkde kat situ.

please please please tag me your links eh.. thanks very the much.^^

shoot.

2009-06-26T23:07:00.002+08:00

i dont know whats going on with you because you never tell.
if i care sangat2 nanti susah. you wont treat me like a friend.
and this is not just about me. not only me. kawan2 you pun same.
one said you've changed.
what would i do if i were you. at least say to shahdan paisey uhh aku da janji yg lain aku tngk ngn drg. bilang sheril ngn liya sorry eh. lain kali aku make it up to krg.???
hmm and i was just asking and asking and asking. then i ckp lah da uhh mls nk lyn. bye. cos i dun want to continue. then you say it wont affect you abit pun? huh?
had enough of me?
ok faizal. ok:)
i get it now.
kalau baru kwn je da tkleh tahan......nevermind.

played netball just now.
i couldnt play. i was here and there dunnoe where.
i just couldnt concentrate due to some stuffs.
nvm.
i admit i was abit cranky.... alot.
my due date is coming so yeah.
i think back was i really angry at you or was i just following my crankiness?
i wonder.. why have i never raised my voice to david? even how irritating he was or how cranky i am. i've never had my voice raised at him.....
omg!!! i need someone to talk to. bf doesnt understand me. i need a professional. i need hazique.

what the hell?!

2009-06-26T13:31:00.002+08:00

TO BESTFRIEND.
YOU KNOW. YOU STARTED EVERYTHING. I WASNT EVEN BINGET AT ALL.
I WAS JUST ASKING ONLY WHAT. LEPAS TUU I WANTED TO END IT OFF BY SAYING MALAS AH NK LYN.
AND YOU SAID IT WONT AFFECT YOU ABIT?
WTH?! WHAT DOES THAT SUPPOSE TO MEAN?
SO AFTER WHAT I HAD GIVEN YOU ALL THIS WHILE.
YOU SAID IT WONT AFFECT YOU ABIT? WHAT KIND OF FRIEND ARE YOU?
TO THINK BACK WHAT YOU SAID.
YOU DONT CARE FRIEND. YOU REALLY DONT. YOU JUST WANT TO WIN. THEN WHO AM I GOING TO SIT WITH WHEN SHAHDAN AND LIYA SIT TOGETHER? THEN IF THEY HEP?? ERGHHHH. WHAT KIND OF BESTFRIEND ARE YOU? YOU FINALLY SHOWED YOUR TRUE COLOURS EH YOU EGO FREAK. SERIOUSLY I DONT REMEMBER THIS WAS THE FAIZAL I USED TO KNOW. NOT THE FAIZAL I USED TO LOVE AS A BESTFRIEND.
WHO ARE YOU? WHAT HAVE YOU BECOME?

WATER SCULPTURE BY AHMAD FARUQ.

2009-06-25T22:40:00.003+08:00

hello guys. well here are some pictures of water sculpture taken by my friend.

faruq a.k.a fu ru ka. he took these pictures but he's not going to upload it. cos he says its not nice.

so i asked him permission to upload these pictures cos i love them. eventhough he says its not nice. its still acceptable for first timers what.

ape je tau apek babat nie.

so here it is. hope you like it like i do. :D!

he only took 4 so yeah.

4 nice ones.

i like it lah apek.

seriously.

how do i say this?

2009-06-19T23:34:00.001+08:00

AKU DILAMUN CINTA.

MS MODEL

2009-06-14T14:55:00.006+08:00

my mum went to take a make up for bridal course and had to make up a model for their graduation. wont elaborate much. let the pictures do the talking.

nurul aini

shasha the "pengantin"

the other models; i don't know their name. sorry.

she won miss catwalk.

she won miss elegance.

she won miss personality.

she has the same name as me.

i was shock. so was she.

miss body beautiful.

sherils.

miss glamourous:)

MISS LUB HANNA.:)

AND, this is me. i didnt win anything

but it doesn't matter.

haha! this is just for experience.

i had lots of fun. feeling nervous. wah!!

i just don't know how to explain.

overall: it was great!

i'm becoming a SUPERSTAR one day!

wait for me people!! haha!

time warp

2009-06-13T16:10:00.004+08:00

i went to school to pass fina a camp form and some cash.
i received a letter from someone.
he said do not read it in front of him. i can do it somewhere else but just dont read it in front of him.
as soon as i left school and head to the bus stop.
i took the letter out of my bag and opened it.
i unfolded the paper and felt my heart feel down.

it reads,

DEAR SHERIL,

I'D NEVER THOUGHT IN MY WHOLE LIFE IWOULD MEET A GIRL
LIKE YOU. YOUR FUNNY, OUTGOING AND ALWAYS NOT AFRAID TO
SAY WHATS ON YOUR MIND.

SINCE THE DAY I MET YOU TO THE 4 AND A HALF MONTHS
WE'VE SPENT TOGETHER, THROUGH THE FUN AND HARD TIMES.
NO MATTER WHAT MY FRIENDS SAY; ABOUT YOU AND WHAT YOU'VE
DONE TO ME. I WILL NOT WALK AWAY FROM YOU.

EVEN THOUGH WE'RE NOT DATING ANYMORE AND YOU TELLING ME
NOT TO WAIT. TILL TODAY, YOUR ALWAYS IN MY MIND AND I HAVE
BEEN WAITING FOR ANOTHER OPPORTUNITY TO MAKE THINGS RIGHT
AND THINGS THAT I'VE NOT DONE BEFORE.

YOU SAID, IF YOU HAD SEEN ME WITH ANOTHER GIRL, YOUR HEART
WILL FEEL PAIN. AFTER THAT I DIDNT KNOW IF YOU STILL HAD
FEELINGS FOR ME OR NOT.

I DIDNT WALKAWAY BECAUSE, I DID NOT WANT TO THROW AWAY
OR LOSE THE BEST THING HAT HAPPENED IN MY LIFE. I KNOW THAT
THINGS MAY NOT WORK OUT AS BEFORE, SO I'M SLOWLY ACCEPTING
THE FACT.

TO ME, YOU ARE WHAT I LOOK FOR IN ANY GIRL, YOU ARE THE GIRL
I WANNA BE WITH. BUT I THINK YOU DESERVE SOMEBODY BETTER
THAN ME. YOU ARE THE GIRL FOR ME BUT I MAY NOT BE THE GUY
YOU ARE LOOKING FOR.

I MISS YOU SO MUCH! JUST THE THOUGHT OF YOU NOT THERE,
I CAN'T EXPLAIN. WE'LL ALWAYS BE FRIENDS AND I'LL NEVER
FORGET YOU AND THE 3 MONTHS I SPENT WITH YOU.

IF BY SOME MIRACLE I GET TO STAY HERE, HOW ARE THINGS
GONNA BE? BECAUSE MOST OF THE TIME ITS EITHER: "IDK"
OR"NOT SURE" OR "I CAN'T".

BUT ITS HOW IT IS.

YOUR THE HARDEST PERSIN I'VE HAD TO SAY GOODBYE TO,
THE MORE I THINK ABOUT IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE AN IDIOT FOR
LEAVING. BUT I HAVE NO CHOICE.

WHAT I HAVE TO SAY CAN'T BE DESCRIBED IN WORDS.
I HOPE WE CAN HANG OUT ONE LAST TIME ON THE 25TH??
JUST TO SAY MY GOODBYES AND OWE YOU THAT KISS.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH SHERIL, YOU HAVE NO IDEA.

sorry!! for everything..
DAVID.

i swear i was crying when i read that letter. he's leaving to australia for a private diploma.
i have nothing else to say.

bing bang boom.

2009-06-10T16:58:00.002+08:00

holidays holidays holidays.
damn bored man..
okok. now currently at faizal's house nothing to do.
im feeling damn sick. haishhhh.
i am having modelling at night how am i gonna take it?
i cant even walk properly. haish.
nvm.
goodbyeeeee.

welcome back arsholes!!!

2009-06-08T17:10:00.003+08:00

jiyahahahaha!!!
okok.
i know i know. i havent been updating my blog for like gazillion years.
SORRY!!!
my internet is sort so i can update. plus i dont know what to update about.
well... now that i've updated. you guys must be happy.

forget about that. im writing
this for those who hate me or dislike me.
i know that you are talking behind my back so dont pretend you didnt.
dont act like you're so good ok? i can take all that crap and keep quiet. but you know that what you do i can too. hell yeah. you can choose to ignore me or whatever. i dont give a fuck.
you're not my only friends:).

holidays are up and i think im gonna spend them by going out everyday to catch things up with bestf!!! ok guys gtg! much love:)

HAPPY ONE YEAR!!

2009-05-04T21:49:00.003+08:00

4th may! 4th may!
haha!! happy one year bestie!
yes yes yes i know i know.
i know that i havent been the sheril u used to know.
idk why. but trust me. im still me.
nothing about me has changed.
we cant meet often cos of school. right?
nvm. theres time for us okay.
takecare. imy FAIZAL KURAP!

ok guys. sorry for not updating blog nowadays.
been coming home late uhh.
busy busy busy.
gaaarghhhh!! step busy je aku nie. tumbok kang.
wells.. i really dunnoe what to blog about lahh.. cant think of anything. ok bye.
david called.

PFFT!

2009-04-24T22:36:00.002+08:00

HELLO HELLO.
oh wells. i know i havent been updating again.
been busy luh deyy.
with?
everything. nyeheh!
okok. i dunnoe why am i so busy also. been lepaking uhh.
cheyy2 mintak kene smack.
ok. today i was out. didnt attend school cos i need to go to work.
work seyy. mcm paham nye aku nie. LOL!
yeah yeah. work. just for a day. for school. it was SUPER bored. and tiring. serious shit. me and fadd wandered round and round for hours with the brochures in our hands.
bored to the max. then 5.30, due2 tk sabar nak balik. seriously damn bored.
ok i have nothing to blog about.

wait wait.
to bestie:
i have not been replying ur msges. yes i know. hmph.! i am still angry with you. you lied.
and u think its that easy for me to forgive you? isly. goodbye.

TADAAAA

2009-04-21T11:33:00.004+08:00

i know i just post something just a few minutes ago.
who cares right? hmm.

see this girl? she's the girl that likes to do what i do.
my twin. yah so what? ayou know when a twin does something the other twin will follow.
oh wells im the fire starter. she's the follower. i hate it sometimes. but what to do? she's my love after all. hmm. all i can do i just to complain to anyone. GAHHHHH!!!
this is me. with oscar my new shirt! haha!! i hate that face but i love the picture. cos of the shirt.
NYAHAHAHAHA!
this is appy's sister. she's so cute. i ask her to gimme 5.
then after that i went to play ball with her. she asked me to catch the ball then i said that i want to go home. she doesnt wnat me to go home so she kept throwing me the ball. how cute.

and this is me again 10 minutes shat. 1o minutes. lots and lots of pictures. yahahahaha!

MY HAIR IS GROWING!

things changed

2009-04-21T11:25:00.002+08:00

yeah. things changed when school started.
alot. idk why but i seldom spend time with bestie and thats boring.
i didnt text someone for quite sometime and he says that i've changed.
and thats awful. different? really? sorry gatal.

and sorry to you guys for not updating my blog for idk how long.......
been busy with school and stuffs.
after school met amaliya most of the time.
yeah.

to faizal:
bby, imy alot. idk how to jumpe u nowadays cos of school.
ur timetable SUCKS BIG TIME!!!!
HAISHHHH. nvm nvm... we'll still stay in contact okayy?
talk to you soon tau!!
okayy guys.
im having my morning madness so i've no point blogging with dunnoe what to say.
ok crap.

BRIDGE LEADERS:)

2009-04-13T21:25:00.002+08:00

BUSINESS EH! EH!
BUSINESS EH! EH!
BUSINESS BUSINESS!
NANTIK!

lol!!
okok whatever eh sheril.
woke up real early today.
at 4.45 cos we BRIDGE LEADERS need to reach school at 7.30!
not on the dot(.) but on the comma(,)
haha! okok! lame i know. oh wells. was super cold in the bus cos i was very nervous. butttttt....
everything turn out to be just fine. its not like how i expected it to be. haha!!
silly me. had a great tiring time.
wont elaborate much cos im super tired. im sure the rest are too.
so i'll just end here and go to rest for tomorrow's event.:)
toodles~

i suck big time.

2009-04-11T12:08:00.002+08:00

the days are coming but im still not confident enough about this thing.
im not sure about the rest but i suck.
haishhh.
im really scared that i might mess everything up.
waduuuuhh. stress banget sih! how i'd wish that i was strong to go thru this fear. grrrrr!!!
okok.
i am going to be a leader for april intake's orientation for class QA!.
i am partnering with nelly. and i seriously suck at this. so how?
what if i mess up? then what will the rest say right?
hmm... i dont know why but im seriously scared.

i suck i suck i suck
i suck i suck i suck
i suck i suck i suck
i suck i suck i suck
i suck i suck i suck
i suck i suck i suck
i suck i suck i suck
i suck i suck i suck
B I G T I M E! ! ! !

SHOP TILL I DROP.

2009-04-08T22:21:00.002+08:00

hello hello.
oh wells.
today woke up at 12 to prepare going to bugis to shop!!!
weehee
met amaliya at smbwg then print pictures.
then off to bugis to meet faizal....
then went shopping.
i really had fun today.
thanks friend. for this day.
for the ring. for the bajus.
for the wallet. for the jeans.
for the perfume.:) for everythingg.
ily friend.

ken and greg?

2009-04-07T23:17:00.003+08:00

okok.
hello.
today i was suppose to go to netball and bl meeting. but i woke up late for netball
and had no money to top up my ez-link to go to bl.
so i hanged out with amaliya gembeng at sembawang. port dave.
then it started to hujan.
actually motive kite gi lepak kat sane is cos kite nk tengok mat saleh yg semalam lambai kat kiteorg. tapi malangnye drg tkde.
so then we tertido at this cosy place till 5 plus. then decided to go cwp to meet faizal.
while we were walking to portdave....... we saw one of this lelaki yg lambai at us. yes yes yes the mat saleh guy. OMG!!!! our face turned from sleepy to shocked.
so kite dudok luhh kat port dave....
that guy who was waiting for his friend sat alone....
smoking.
after that he was walking towards us then his friend called him, so he turned back and sat with his friend and smoked again......
after a while......
the are going off.... i was sitting facing amaliya so i didnt really saw where they were walking.

suddenly....

heyy!(one of them said).
so i turned and said hi back as david taught me to say. lol!
then he came towards me and said.
hi whats your name while hulur-ing his hand to me for a hand shake....
so i shaked his hand and he said that his name is KEN.(i think.)
then.
KEN: WHAT'S YOUR NAME?
ME: SHERIL.
KEN: OH AND YOU?(ASKED AMALIYA)
LIYA: AMALIYA
KEN: OK, THIS IS GREG.(POINTING TO HIS FRIEND)
SHERIL: OK, HI:)
KEN: SO WHERE YOU GUYS FROM?(SITTING BESIDE ME)
SHERIL: I DONT KNOW.
KEN: YOU GUYS JUST HANGING AROUND HERE?
SHERIL: YEAH. YOU?
KEN: YEAH IM JUST HANGING AROUND HERE TOO. YOU GREG? WHERE YOU FROM DUDE?
GREG: IM FROM WHEREVER YOU'RE FROM DUDE.
then greg pointed to the wall,
GREG: ARE YOU THAT SHERIL?
SHERIL: OH NO.
GREG: YOU SURE?
SHERIL: YES.
KEN: YA, ARE YOU SURE? COZ IMMA CALL THAT NUMBER YA KNOW.
SHERIL: YES IM SURE, THATS NOT EVEN MY NUMBER.
then greg said.
GREG: DUDE THATS MY NUMBER YOU FAGGOT.
KEN: OH! ITS MY BAD. SORRY DUDE.
then both stood up talked to us a little longer then said that
KEN: OK. WE'RE GONNA GO NOW. SEE YOU GUYS:)
SHERIL: OK BYE..... BYE(IN A DRAGGY WAY AND DREAMY ONE TOO. STILL SMILING WHEN THEY WALKED OFF)
after they were gone we were so excited i tell you.
cos for the first time in our lives mat saleh bobal ngn kiteorg!!!!! haha!!
then we walked off a while later. i know im bragging. okayy sorry im just too excited in things like this.
okayy i should stop now.
takecare

randomness strikes

2009-04-05T22:42:00.002+08:00

bleahahahaha!!

i dont know what to post about.

oh wells.. didnt do anything much today

stayed at home the whole day.

gahahahaha.

bored to death.

well.

to you shahdan:

oh please dont be stress. take it like u are going to holiday like u said. dont think that u are going to ns. ok? im sure u're gonna be fine. *smiles*

oh we're gonna miss you friend. oh yes we are. takecare okayy.:)

give it up.

2009-04-01T22:02:00.006+08:00

i had a really fun bad day today. haha! ok i dont know how to put it but its a fun bad fun bad fun bad day.
it all started like this.

once upon a time. my clique said that my bestfriend met with an accident. i didnt trust them cos i know that they are trying to prank me. but then i played along lah. they seemed so serious about it. so i was half hearted to trust them or not. on my way to civic. i was thinking that if this was really a prank. im gonna get really angry upset and mad.
so then it was really a prank. oh wells i kept my angriness to myself eventhough i was about to scream out loud FUCK YOU! THIS IS NOT FUNNY! i kept it in my heart. but it was really not funny. i tried my best to put on a smile.
so then went to admiralty carpark to slack. waited for that kurap to come.
then he came. slack for awhile then i was hungry. so waited for sotong to come back.
then wanted to go to ap to eat. half way there................

i dunnoe why i lost my mood. somehow i just lost it just like that.

i ran to the bus stop. going to cry. when bestie came running after me. grrrrr!!

then i seriously dont feel like talking. hmms

so i went to the toilet at admiralty mrt. dunnoe why i went in. then went out again. i wanted to take train to go home but then sotong tk kasi. ccb!

so after he talked3 to me. i decided to sit at mc with them lorh. then kurap didnt even talked to me when i feel like talking. hampret! bla3. then i dont know where boncet and kurap go leaving gemok and sotong alone. sotong kept asking me. where they go where they go? i just kept quiet. they came back then we walked off from macD. to street soccer court. i was walking alone, crying when shahdan chased me. he was alone and he said that boncet and kurap are behind. i dont care. kept walking. my target to at least see hazique's face cos i miss him. know why. cos he's the only one who knows me inside out good and bad. he's always there for me when i need someone to talk to. now. i dont have anyone that understands me. no one to talk to. no one to console me when im down. understand me faizal?

so then i dont know where kurap and boncet went. menghilang for idk how long.

so i went home. with no goodbyes. :'(

this is for u faizal,

i know everything went wrong, wanna know why i was angry.

cos first. the april fool prank was really not funny. it hurts to make me rush down to cwp thinking i was gonna go to the hospital to see u. second my handphone dropped cos of u. it hurts. third. if u dont like my perangai why not talk to me? why talk to boncet? fourth. ckp ily abeh bukan nak bobal kn. padehal sebelah2 je. bacen. and yes yes yes i miss hazique cos he's the only one i can talk to.

ok now. im really sorry about what happened earlier. very sorry. i know i know u tahan thru all my angriness and shits i've done to you. u still stayed thru thick and thin. even though there are ups and downs i just want you to know that no matter what happens............. just remember that

i'll still love you bestfriend

xoxo

oh aishaaa(:

2009-04-01T10:44:00.002+08:00

sorry aishaaa

for the late update of pics!! haha!! i went to sleep straight away.

heres the pictures baby. tadaaaa!!

ok tc.

loves.

ok im bored!!

2009-03-30T16:56:00.002+08:00

1 2 3 4

shake ur butt

and move out the door

haha!

ok. im bored!!!

damn bored!!!

very bored!!!

haishh!!

now currently at home noting to do.

so i decided to blog.

not going out cos i have no plans(duhhhh)

ok shut up shut up

i dun have anything to say lahhhh!!!

haishhhh!!

somebody can u ask me out or something?!

i freaking bored at home! haiyo!!

SETUPID!

2009-03-28T00:58:00.003+08:00

gosh im feeling so darn bored.

i sprained my ankle.

ouch!

hmm. nvm about that.

just now i shouted out loud and made everyone shock.

stupid cockroach!

haha!

paiseyy!

oh yaa!!

speaking of paiseyy.

that day i was sleeping.

still dreaming......

then mum texted me.

i look at my hp with eyes half opened.

then i put at my ear and say "hello".

haha!!!!!!

so foolish of me.

then i realised that it was a msg.

haha!

-hugs and kissess-

-sher.

I LOVE YOU guys!!!!!!

2009-03-26T23:09:00.000+08:00

im sure u've read my last post about my birthday

which was boring.

BUT!!!!!

TODAY I HAVE A NEW STORY!!!

it all started when

once upon a time rl melayus planned to go out.

on the 26th of march.

we went to seoul garden to eat...

pictures at seoul:

then we went sheesha-ing:

everyone there except firdaus sheeshaed!

teEheE!

THEN SHAF<3

ask me to follow her go toilet so i did.

after we came back.....

see that smile?

u know what makes it come?????

this.

they bought this cake for me.

heE!

i was so elated that i burst into tears.eventhough it was

damn BEEEEEEEELATED

i appreciate it lots!!

thanks guys!<3>

i wished!
and blowed.
smelled somthing fishy....
and pooooff!!
haha! diyanah u really shudnt have done

that!

then fed all.

after that went to slack with the girls .

talked alot.

oh wells i want another day

like this!! can?

next year perhaps?

now.

my conclusion.

firstly:

i want to say that i love these girls.

alot!!
mess with them?

u go thru me.

secondly:

thanks guys for making my BEEEEELATED

BIRTHDAY happen!

aku syg korang.!

and lastly:

i enjoyed my day today

and didnt regret going out with you guys

lots of love!

mwah mwah mwah.

i am sheril.

signing off.

-stay tune-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME? OH CRAPP..

2009-03-14T00:29:00.000+08:00

birthday?

it dont seem like it is my b'dae if im crying.

my bdae.

one word.

boring.

i had no plans.

nowhere to go.

and i need to follow to my mums bbq.

it was suppose to be mine but i dun wan so she invited her friends.

celebrated MY birthday with her friends?

what is this day mine or hers?

fuck luhh.

haissh.

and nobody there knew it was my birthday.

cut a cake which is not my name?

wth?!

its my birthday i want to enjoy it with my friends. not ur friends what.

erghh!!

im so upset.

sorry to those who i didnt reply ur msges.

i was damn upset.

to diyanah aisha fidah and to those who had WISHED me.

thanks guys! i love you guys.!!

-hugs and kisses-

-sher.

look at the moon people.

2009-03-12T21:27:00.003+08:00

mr lucky.

i was seriously damn bored.

and i couldnt sleep.
so i find things to become my prop. bleahahaha!!

i caught a very beautiful picture of the moon.

if you look outside now.
you notice that the moon seems to be so close but far away.
get it?

oh wells. not much happening today.
two more days?
oh brother. who cares anyway.

-hugs & kissess-
-sher.

i miss my long thick hair.

2009-03-11T22:46:00.003+08:00

before.

i miss this hair. its long and thick.

after.
still upset with the hairdresser.
eerrgghh!!

fever go away.

i dont know why i keep falling sick.

haissh

dying soon i guess?

ok not.

oh wells. the whole day at home was a boring day. with nothing to eat.

bleahhhh. haissh.

now body aching everywhere.

played soccer to exercise.

then fought with bestie. sampai tulang kering terlanggar. ah pok ah.... lu tk tau fight uhh.

haha!!

okok. i need to go study for test tomorrow.

goodbye now.

-hugs and kisses-

-sher.

countdown?? nahhhh...

2009-03-10T21:22:00.003+08:00

another four more days.

woohoo!!

oh wells. today went to school despite waking up late.

then when we reached.. class was cancelled

so we went to eat at cafe two. after that went to campus haven to eat again cos

our next class is at 2 pm.

boring.

thats when i started to feel sick.

so i went to cafe 1 to buy panadol.

thanks huh sapau.

for the $1. HAHA!

then bestie took me from school.

went to eat nasi ayam thousand island.

after that went to admiralty to lepak. but then i went there and sleep at rc.

i was freezing to death. so i decided to go home.

thanks eh danish for lending me ur hoodeyyh.

i appreciate it much even for just awhile.

so now im here blogging with this mashimaro pyjamas.

damn cold.

i've nothing else to say

-fuck the fever-

-sher.

DHOUBY GHAUT VIVO SENTOSA!

2009-03-08T22:52:00.008+08:00

yesterday i went out with IRNEYY.

went to plaza sing watched dance competition.

then went to vivo.... at first we were suppose to go eat there.

then we lost appetite suddenly. huhu!

so went to walk around then saw shahzani's sister..

i know her... but she doesnt know me. bleahhhhh..

then went to camwhore.. oh i miss her alot.

then went to cousin's house to sleep over. sunday which is today......

went to sentosa with cousin and her friends.

sentosa for? netball competition.

omg! the sun was burning my skin. i feel like the sun is standing right beside me.

then went to take a dip after everything is done.

went to seah im to eat then go home luhh.

damn tired i don't feel like going to school tomorrow.

bleahhh..

here's some pictures to end off.

after netball and tanning and dipping and playing with sand

mooniera

whats with that smile siaa??

this cat is cute!

irni susiyanti imy!

sharereal!

see that gap? its for two more two fill in.

thats all.

-the end-

-hugs and kisses-
-sher.

friday night

2009-03-06T22:17:00.002+08:00

today. nothing much happen luhh.

i wanted to go buy shoe after school at queensway.

but then as soon as i reach home, i fell asleep. HUHU!

tomorrow going to plaza sing to watdh danceworks!!

goodluck for tomorrow KAT! :).

OH WELLS. I SERIOUSLY DONT KNOW WHAT TO POST LUHH. HAISSH.

birthday coming soon. dont know where to go. with who.

maybe just sit at home. BORINGGGGG...

should i semangat semangat and countdown like matthew?

bleahhhh.... what for..

wallet is still missing. sedeh!!!

haissh i think ade toyol take uhh.

i am SURE.

seriously..... nothing happened today. so i guess i'll just stop here.

sorry for the boring post. bleahhhh..

-hugs and kissess-

-sher.

please leave me alone.

2009-03-05T22:39:00.004+08:00

i didnt go to school for some reasons.

one is because of this stupid diarrhoea that still doesnt cure even when i ate the medicine that makes me drowsy.

two is because of my fucked up moooooooood.

pms maybe.

seriously. i dont feel like myself this few days. idk why lah.

anyways. missing wallet is still not found so i cant pay my netball jersey. bleahhh.

stupid fool.

card card aku sume pun nak kebas ke? grrr!

ok i shall not dwell on that.

i had a netball match against fuchun sec today. it was awesome as we trash them

39-9.

i seriously cant believe it. but it was very tiring though. very very tiring.

but it was a great game.

then took pictures with kakak sedare and friends with the teacher(i dont even know her,just kepo kepo je) then went to eat at kfc then walk to hardcourt to have our training.

after a few games with sec school friends... played with my kakak sdare civac friends.

bleahhhhh.... then it started to rain. so everybody parted lorh.

-great game today coconuts-

-you guys were awesome-

~hugs and kisses~

-sher.

hey hey you you.

2009-03-03T18:42:00.002+08:00

i know what you yes you did. ok?

ok.

maybe not. hmm. oh wells today bestie sent to school. then when we reach simei already.....

it's already starting to rain heavily. -_-"

so i was stuck at eastpoint nowhere to go. so i didnt turn up for efc. bleah.

then went to meet classmates. went to cafe 2..... thats went all the shit began. cos i 'lost'

my wallet. i somehow did. i dont know how.

i know that it was on the table but when i left. there is nothing on the table except for

rubbish. oh wells. whoever that has taken my wallet or 'found' it and didnt return. i hope you will suffer one day. karma. hmms.

i wonder what i've done to deserve all this. shit.! nvm..... what goes around comes around.

i'll wait... maybe you are stepping on my head cos you think that i wont do anything. ok we'll just have to wait and see. i can survive w/o you.

sape makan chilli die yg terase.(",)

oh puhlease! IM NOT INTERESTED. I DONT BOTHER ABOUT ANY SHIT.

2009-02-25T21:55:00.004+08:00

i didnt want to blog.

but i dont know whats bothering me. something caught my eye. cos its in my favourite colour. bleah. whats that suppose to mean? oh please you think i even bother to about him. eh eh, do you know how to differenciate seriousness and a joke? kental siaa.... i was joking. you think i go around chasing cute guys? LOL! what for? im not interested lah. seriously. i was just being a joke. cos i was damn bored during rto. you wanna break my face? meh come meh. try to break their relationship? i dont even know who they are siaa. i dont even give a damn. i got my own life to lead. and oh yes. i do have a life. as for you. fadd. tadi kau boleh bbl depan2 tnk. errrps. say what you wanna say about me. cos it doesnt affect me any worst. im not interested in your friend. cos if you heard what i said just now, single is the best. yeahyeah.!!

and btw, pantat kau. what you mean by'how many guys i want?' heh. how many do i have right now?1? 2? 3? do you even know? JGN MP UH. LOL LOL LOL LOL!! how long have you know me to judge me that way?. and also you are no one to ask me to gat a life. nak get a life gi rtc uhh. selengersssss.!!

yada yada yada...... why am i blogging about you anyways.... might as well blog about my day. haha!! okay. well. today nothing much to talk about. really. went to school then rto crn then rto again. mendaks... then went to admiralty to lepak. met ex boyfie's sisters. omg!! i miss them. lol! they die die ask me to go their house. i dun wan uhh. haha!! then he came to rc. i was sitting with bestie. ah pok. then blah blah blah. i wanted to go mc with bestie and 'syg' so i slm ex boyfie. hug and then i decided to give him a peck on the cheek. thats all. i just miss him. hmm. no no no. things wont be the same. it never will. hmmmm... okayy luhh. im thinking to much.

makes me upset+angry+feel like dying. one word. EMOTIONAL.

STUPID. REGRET.

2009-02-24T22:43:00.003+08:00

i cut my hair.

its ugly!!! ergh!!! stupid *toot* dont know how to cut hair!! erghh!! haishh. it looks so short. i miss my long hair. haishh. if i know i never go volunteer to become their model. liyanaishafidah all hairstyle so nice mine like wtf?!!!! erghhh!!!! gerammm siaaaa!!! i miss my long hair. omg! i miss you. haissh!!! do you know how long it takes to grow that long? very long. then now you cut just like that. snap! wait not snap. its snaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaap. stupid! cut hair also take you so long meh? dont know how to cut. make my hair so ugly. i want same shape you make square layer. tell you 1 inch you cut 1 metre. then my hair cannot even reach my bra buckle. erghhh!!!! stupid stupid stupid. go and die lahh.!!!

btw matt. thanks for doing what you need to do. i know u know eyhh. shhhssshh!!! haha!!

thanks for imagining that you're a girl. and haha!!

hey hey you you................. lol lol lol.

-imy someone-

what's wrong with you? or is it me?

2009-02-23T20:28:00.003+08:00

i don't know why. i feel like a dog following my master here and there. why must i listen to you? oh wells. i can't take it any longer. do you know that i'm hurt? deep enough but i still keep it to myself. but everything has gone too far and i can't take it any longer. i need to let it out.

first of all.

-ashley-

i know that you need my help. help in what? for what i see. you are just using me to see her fuck face. i know this is for jp. but i've got feelings too what. then after that i don't think that you will look for me already lah kn. hmm. just for that day only for you, i have to act as your gf just so you can see her fuck face? i feel like a fool.

secondly.

-ls-

do you notice how patient i was to you? after all you did? i know that we're new to each other but you really don't want to see me angry. cos i don't care about anything. what do you think i am? what have i done to you?have i ever leave you alone when im with my friends? or plan to go home with you cos you want to meet someone i like? then when that guy is gone i buih you then tell you i wanna go home with my friend who stays near me. then when my friend wants to wait till 6 you call to tell me that you're joining me and going home with me. thats ok lah. i dun really mind. i think. but if you hadn't notice its happened alot of times where you just leave me alone. what do you treat me as? sampah sarap? bleah. someone ask me. of all my friends. why am i close to you. and if you really wanna know the answer then find out yourself. everything has always got to go your way. then in the bus you didnt even talk to me. wth?! i don't know why everybody is acting weird today. i feel that im going home alone. i feel stupid.

last but not least.

-sapau-

i think you know how i feel. upset. you know why. cos i waited for you then you from school till you alighted. didnt even open your mouth to talk to me. why is everyone treating me like this? what have i done wrong now? i tried to talk. but you seem to ignore. somehow trying to ignore. haissh. when you alighted at your stop. i feel like i was invisible and don't even exist. do you know how much that hurts? alot. i feel useless.

overall. i just wanna say that i feel like a dog. foolishly following everyone around. fuck fuck fuck you all uhh. what do you guys treat me as? who am i to you?

oh gosh. please don't mind my words. i don't really mean it. out of anger. im sorry people. haissh i guess i shall just stop here and don't foolow my emotions. i just can't stop tearing.

goodbye.

i miss faizal superpok.

i need someone to talk to. rightnow. really. someone that understands me.

restart the deal.

2009-02-18T22:42:00.005+08:00

today i ate hotcakes!! yayy!! thanks to bestie lahh!! haha!! he came to my house and i havent bathe!! haha!! lol!! okok. then went to mac to eat lunch. its not even 1 hr after my breakfast. huhu!!! then he send me to school. blah blah blah. after school went to meet ashley. then my deal is off.. i promised someone that i will stop smoking. but apparently i couldnt resist the temtation. sorrry sorrrry sorrrrry. then he was upset with me. i can hear it in the tone of your voice. i didnt see you today cos you end early. and you didnt text me. not till 4.34.

haisshh. then went to admiralty to meet bestie and sayang. huhu!! sorry uhh sayang. i purposely ask faizal to amek gambar. nak letak kat blog. haha!! aku nk bilang the whole worl aku sayang kau!! haha!! LISTEN UP PEOPLE. DASIH BUSTED AKU ON VALENTINE'S DAY. DIE KUA NGN NIZWAN. AND NIZWAN!! KAU JAGE UHH!! KAT SKOLA AKU NMPAK KAU AKU REMBAT UHH!! HAHA!! KAU DA PASS DASIH PAT AKU NOW KAU NK AMEK BALEK!! PANTAT UHH.

DANISH JELANI AKU PUNYE LAHHHH!!! HUHUHU!!.

good morning everyone.this is a very long post.

2009-02-18T09:57:00.003+08:00

hello good morning. i just realised that i havent been updating my blog for quite sometime. know why? cos the lappy is not on the study table. so i search and searchand search then i found it on my brother's bed. wahh jahat siaa go tanam. hmmph!! ok now about my post. first and for most. i would like to thank my brother's friend for making my day on the 14. even though i dint get anything. and yes yes yes i envy those who are attached. haish. hahaha!! i know i know my face is like an apple. so? who cares it means that im blushing? hahahahahaha!! paisey nye aku!! ok. went home with sapau two days ago and at paya lebar he smelled something like diarrhoea. HAHA! but the funny thing is i cant smell it. haha! so ignored him. he kept fidgeting around. then i couldnt take it and laughed at him suffering all the way till raffles. he's reactions and words made me laugh more.HAHAHAHA!! "the smell is melting my brain",he said. and then,"im going to die". HAHA!! cute lah you. haha!! sorry for laughing. ok end of part one. to ah pok. sorry lah tk msg. i tgh mrajok uhh ngn danish and wan. boohoohoo. hmph. sampai hati seyy drg buat i gini. tkpe uhh. ape nk buat kene redha je lah. yayy!! and finally i told my mum i lost my ez link. haha!! that was not so bad lerr. haha!! i thought she was gonna scold me or something. haha!! she just nagged. but now. i get more money to school. huhu!! now im currently waiting for ah pok to buy my hotcakes. entah die beli ke tk. haha!! HUNGRYYYY!!! know who's fav word?? MATTISSUE!! haha! he's always hngry. like me. haha!! ok go.

oh wells havent even bathe at all. so lazy wanna go to school lah. i skipped p.e again. so lazy uhh. and didnt go to netball yesyerday.cos i don't want to miss avatar last episode. haha!! and oh yaa!! i dropped my 6 days old hp!! HEARTBREAK SIAAAAA!!! then after that. my hp kena kidnap..!! waaahh piang uhh. haha!!

ok. monday. i had fun with classmates. i mean all the malay girls. ses lesson. we took alot of pictures lah. girls will be girls. ok. went in then sit there for a few mins. then go off. we have one hour to lla. ms yuen release us early. huhu! then sit in front of s.e.c.

played ummm... pamparumparumpampampam.tuuuuuuuuuki tuki.. HAHAHA!! ok!! idk how to explain. but that WAS FUN FUN FUN IN THE SUN. HAHA!! you know girls. thanks for the fun. i cant spell fun without u in the middle. huhu!! ok. then went to lla. for a few minutes also. then a buch of malay girls went to the toilet and didnt return. haha!! all malas want to go to lesson already. haha!

then tuesday. came early with liyana. walk lenggang lenggok. but still early. haha!! then went to eat nasi ayam thousand island. waahhhh!! heaven man.!! haha!! then went to memorise script. huhu!! i did memorise it easily. cos i was the one who made it.type it. edit. yadayadayada. haha!! liyana didnt do that bad also. huhu!! after that. went to a long lunch. with syuhada and shazwani yg cabot efc tuu cos tk hafal script. haha!!! k nvm. then went to eat mee siam. and i just know that i don't know how to eat. huhu!! the stain cannot be washed away. so i covered it with my bag.! haha!! oh wells. then after school went to change immediately!! haha!! then went to cafe 2 to eat again. haha!! i know eat alot right. kate perot babi!! haha!! then meet mattress and brother bear. haha!! then went back to school to meet sapau. huhu!! then went home together lah. i was late for my avatar so i rushed home quickly. i wanted to run but later peope tot i was crazy. huhu!! after avatar talked to sapau for awhile then went to sleep. haha!! ok.

then came today morning. HUNGRYY!!!! k the end.

fuck uh fuck!

2009-02-12T21:26:00.004+08:00

today was quite a very fun day. cos me and faizal laugh at people all the way in 168. HAHA! ade org bwk motor lah dlm bus. AHAHAHA!!! i seriously cannot stop laughing lah. i think the girl behind me also laugh.!! haha!! then went to lepak at woodlands and waited for sayang to come. huhu!! after that went to sit sit at rc first then went to pasar malam to buy my goodluck charm necklace huhu.

then i want to go home. i just realised that my ez link is gone gone gone!! fuck uh fuck!! i search everywhere but still not found. sape2 baik please return to me lah. haish. sedeh siaa. hmm. baru buat seyy. then hilang. haiyo.

matthew!! so bad!! you cheated my feelings siaa!!! i run down then you go already!! i don't want to friend you already uhh!! hmph!!

to whom it may concern

2009-02-11T22:38:00.003+08:00

i never mean to do that. i feel so bad that you broke up cos of me. i know that you know but you are so kind to not ignore me. im so sorry. i really shouldnt do what i did. but he. you know who is the one who wanted to go to school with me. i already told him that i don't want to cos i don't want to make you think that im bad. but he said that nothing will happen. but i still don't want. idk what made me agree also. i have never thought of breaking you guys up. seriously. i feel very bad. im really really sorry. i just don't know how to repay back your kindness. i wanted to apologise to you face to face but i just can't cos i will burst into tears. please by all means punish me if you want to. really.

you can put the blame on me.

-sher.

to abg 17 and abg 18

2009-02-11T21:53:00.005+08:00

yesterday had netball, again i didnt update yesterday cos i was very very very tired. tige! i know! jadi tk yah nak spot eyh org org! due plak. haha!! ok stop. haha! hmm. again training was super tiring and if this goes on. i think im going to be a jellyfish. haha! k lame.

today. went to meet my syg. one and only ABG DANTIANO 17! and SUPERPOK 18 heheh!! sekali got my "abg" lah wan bean. they are my bestfriends lah of course. heE. then gadoh with wan bean cos he want to steal my syg syg syg. tige! where can like that. hmph.! then went to mactiano eat burger. and takoyaki. thanks ah pok cos belanje i eyhh.. syg u. eh!! tk tk!! syg anish lah!! due! haha!! then they send me and wan bean to bus stop. abeh kan. they eat at the bus stop. then when my bus came i thought why they were hiding all their food luhh. skali.... paiseyy rupenye.. anyways!!!!

I HAVE AN ANNOUNCEMENT TO MAKE......................................................

FAIZAL SUPERPOK BELOM MANDI SATU HARI!!!!! HAHAHA!!! PLEASE SPREAD AROUND THE WHOLE WORLD!! EYHH TKYA LAH. PASS KAT ALIFF WORLD JE. HUHU!!

oh gosh. i miss them alot. ah pok. bile nak hep? ahahaha!!! pantat!! set c or what?? haha!! syg syg syg. you nak hep juga?? ahaha!! entah u tau ke tk!! tkpe bole di ajar. ahaha!! ok. i just wanna tell you guys that imygsm lah! thats why now im spending all the free time i can find with you all!!! YAYY!! three cheers and three cheers and three cheers for me. HIP HIP!(HURRAY) HIP HIP!(HURRAY) HIP HIIIIPPPP!(HURRRRRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!) WOOOHOOO!! K da uhh. aku rase shafidah suro aku diam uhh. haha!! k go k go. so long and goodnight.

-sher.

oh boy.

2009-02-09T22:51:00.000+08:00

hello hello!! sorry for not updating it for quite sometime. i have no time to update lah. haha!! oh wells. when did i last update eyhh?? hmm.. last week?? yaa luhh.. but when?? haha!! okok.. wells. saturday. when to chong pang with bestie to check my pay. but then my bankbook empty. upset siaa. then meet dasih eh eh oops meet the one and only dantiano at northpoint. BAYAA BAYAA!! haha!! imysm siaa!! both of you. heheh. nothing to do so we went to macd. went to eat alot..!!! haha!! then went to port dave to slack. huhu!! danish got new handphone. so what else siaa???!! aku camwhore lah sendiri!! haha!! then natasha came and we camwhored again!!! haha!! had a fun time lah slacking with them. huhu!! faizal the great camera man!! took for us alot of nice pictures. THANKS TO THE OWNER OF THE PHONE!! AND TO THE MOST WONDERFUL CAMERAMAN!!HAHA!! ILY YOU BOTH MAN.!! here are some pictures taken on that day.

for those who don't know, these are my two besties:dantiano 17 and ah pok 18(:

this is my "sayang""bf" dasih bayaa bayaa!! haha!!

ok. this is my saturday. haha!!

my sunday. fuuh!!! was super fun fun fun in the sun!! hahahahahha!!! know why know why?? haha!! cos i get knew handphone!!!!! woohoo!!! my dream handphone!! C902!!! heheh!! ah pok beli same same ok!! hahaha!!

monday!! went to school. yada yada yada. then after 4 plus went home with aisha liyana and fidah. dropped at raffles and went to meet dee ehh vee aii dee.!! then went home with him. huhu!! nothing much lah for today. just having fun with my new hp!! huhu!! action siaa!! ok then now what i wanna do is go conference with liyana and mattress!! huhu!! goodnight people

NETBALL!!

2009-02-05T20:39:00.000+08:00

had netball yesterday.

wanted to blog but was too tired already. after i reach home i took a shower

then go talk on the phone with sapau for a while then pengsan siaa.

SORRY liyana!! for not staying up for conference.. i really cannot take it uhh.

anyways.

had netball training. it was fun but tiring cos im not feeling well.

i think fina pass the virus to me also. HAHA! ok not.

april did passes with me and made me jump very high!

HAHA! i cannot take siaa her ball. did passes until my hand like jelly already. finally..

she said i can go join the saidah. so i did.

she also one more. make me do jumps. but good uhh cause i LOVE so i can be tall tall tall!! HAHA! then played a match. i played center so i

need to run alot!! there are some parts that im too tired to run then i just walk.

i played all the way. the teacher didnt ask anyone to replace me which is a good thing.

thats what sapau said.

BUT!! tiring uhh. very....... after training went home. wait. go do something with ray first then took cab to tampines interchange. they went to eat so i went home. cos i dun wanna be late, later my dad hantam siaa!! HAHA! after i reach home. WAHH!! cannot tahan already cos i feel that every part of my body is like JELLY already siaa!!

took a bath then lie down on my bed. after about one hour or so talking on the phone. i really cannot take it already so i went to sleep. the end. HAHA!!

oh yaa!!!!!!!!!!!! btw im sprained her ankle. i dont know. maybe its cos of me or she tripped herself. SORRY IM!!!

NOW. about today....

i reached school early cos i took the bus. don't know where to go cos im very early and all of my friends havent reach yet. alamak betol. nvm cos im used to it. HAHA! went up to level four and into class. the mdm siti was talking to the class and i am on the phone with liyana cos she want to ask me question. rupe-rupenye, no need to go class. waaaaaahahahahaha. cos no need to practice script uhh. tomorrow then. hmmmm.. so we went to cafe 2 to eat. HAHA! after that went to class. yada yada yada. ses lesson. nadia was in no mood i don't know why. she asked me to follow her to the toilet. on the way there, she suddenly burst into tears siaa, OMG!! i don't know what to do already seyy. anjat girl girl. i comforted her then went back to class. she was sad all the way till after school and now?? idk. sedih siaa. friends friends.haissh. nvm nadia just relax ok babe.... you've got me and the rest of the other girls. maybe she was not in the mood or something? im sure she'll talk to you. i will talk to her if you want me to but you don't let. nvm.

i think i am going to end here. KIWAKK!! panjang pe post? mamanceh eh korang. HAHA!! tomorrow school start at 8, then got ses test, then bl team bonding, then netball with kakak sedare and frens. penat pe. haiyo..!! nvm nvm aku sapau. kan hotty? ok lah bbye ppl i need to go finish crn corrections then study ses. rajin anak mak. HUHU!! K BYE!:)

shitty

2009-02-04T12:41:00.000+08:00

i reached home early today coz i went home with him.

don't know why i was so happy to see him.

haha!! oh wells. i shouldnt think too much lah ok.

haha!! talked in the train and he explained some stuffs to me.

understood him and made sure not to repeat that again. i feel so bad.

DEE called me yesterday while i was blogging. he really wanted to talk but i answered him in

one sentence by one sentence. i ignored hm coz of blog.

then he told me that he wanted to hang up coz he wants to go to the toilet.

this morning he didnt give a a morning msg. so i was thinking why lah?

he's class was next to mine in the lap. so i decided to text him. after school

we met then went home together. then i found out that he was angry coz he called as he wants to talk but i was busy blogging then says im not.

im so sorry DEE, i won't repeat this again ok. seriously,

i didnt mean to.

oh cousins

2009-02-03T12:52:00.000+08:00

had a really great time camwhoring with cousins yesterday. huhu!!
stupid camera girl only want to work for money. pig sia
HAHA!!

see the orange one?
yes yes yes thats our camera girl.
she got two bucks just to take our pics. FUCK SIAA!! haha!!
the black one was so kind to give.
alarhh.. she still small what.. haha!!

its not everytime we get to hang out together you know. haha..
so i think the next time we meet is gonna be on august??
when kak ain gets married??
woohoo!!!!
here's more of them

overall i think she did ok lahh.. cheyy sofiyah camera girl sey.

listen up

2009-02-03T11:54:00.000+08:00

ok.
am so bored at home.
so i decided to blog.
tkde care?
what you mean tkde care ehh?? oh wells. what did i do wrong this time??
he's just a friend. so don't tell me that you're hurt.
or i hurt you.
if it did hurt then im sorry uhh..
SORRY HAIRUL!!! i didnt mean to do that just that he's staying near by and i thought of meeting him for awhile. plus i told you that most of my friends are guys right?
then why all those reactions? was it sheikh or some other people who wrote that?
haish..
thanks for the ban mian. =)
i want you to know that if we're still friends then i think it should stay that way. for now.
im not ready to be in a relationship.
i just want to make friends.
i am so not ready to be with aanyone right now.
i hope you understand. im so sorry for everything ok.
i know that i've admitted that i like you. but im seriously not ready to be in all this hurting and arguing, everything that happens in a relationship. fuck my life lah! why am i posting this crap?

SAPAU

2009-01-27T00:09:00.000+08:00

HELLO HELLO.
today is a very exciting day for me. haha. i dont know why.
maybe cos i went out with a hot guy and i've been smiling all the way while i was talking to him.
he treated me STARBUCKS COFFEE!!
before that we had a long talk together. but too bad this is not a date i guess.?
he was smoking hot lah with his long sleeve shirt.
well i had fun too looking at him looking at other girls.

haha GATAL!!.

so after the small talks and long laughters we decided to take a walk.

stop at memorial then took pictures.

if i can i want to put pictures here.

but sorry.

i can do it just yet.

HAHA! so i'll just stop here coz i really don't know what to

say any more. (:

2009-01-02T17:39:00.000+08:00

I wanted you - Ina