2:41 PM - Friday, February 26, 2010
cos i think he is adorable. huahua.love his smile. its so cute and the way he sings just melts me.
okay. i actually wanted to update two days ago but i was super tired. yesterday, computer jam.
fcuked up!.
ok so.
lets start from tuesday night. i talked otf with ashym. till 3 plus then
i wanted to call somebody else but his hp was off. idk why.
then, i read eclipse till i fell asleep. woke up at 6 plus going 7 to text ashym
whether he's going to school or not. he called me and said that he's not going to school. so i asked him to meet
me at sembawang, met him at macD and yes! like finally i had hotcakes for breakfast.
then amaliya came down also to eat breakfast, tapi ashym blanje.
i pity him seh. kesian tkde duit mkn. okay after that lepaked at my house then bussed down to 682. then, at 7
i went to sembawang to watch my friend play takraw. i was so the nantok ready siaaa.
but tkpe tahan je lah.
after i reached home.
i didnt bother to online or whatsoever. mandi tros tdo.
was superduper tired lah.
then
semalam. i went to chong pang to buy bird food.
i asked bestf faizal to accompany me. after i went to buy food.
we wlked from yishun to admiralty.
yes imagine that. dari chong pang tau ppl.
we walked at gambas there. then suddenly got this part ah.
the gate open know.
thenthen i ask faizal ape ni uh? boleh masok ke?
then die kate entah skali short cut eh boleh tembos the other side.
then i say eh? best nye? jom uhh nk masok?
so we walked in uh. the sign says this is a dont know lah what.
then it says youu're entering at your own risks.
then we walk uhh sepanas2 nye.
boleh terbakar seh.
then sekali you guys know what is that place?
its's the hotspring. huahua.
so we sat down cos got wind.
then we wanted to try the hot spring but we don't know how.
thw bestf say. tkpe kite tengok org buat ape then kite ikot. so we did uh.
we took this one bucket os water then pour on the kaki. KIMAK! PANAS GILE LAH.
haha! its was very funny ah.
then we soaked our legs in the hot water.
but obviously we waited for the ater to cool down abit ah.
then after that we continued our journey to admiralty.
kesian faizal penat. haha!
it was fun uh.
thank you bestf for temaning me. hee.
p/s: love me love me say that you love me baby.
Labels: shout whenever and i'll be there
11:33 PM - Tuesday, February 23, 2010
im back again. cos i totally forgot to post something. nyet!
okk. i went to lepak at 682 just now. as usual.
took pictures with lya,ju and tasha was damn bored lah. huahua.
there you go.
and to this bbygirl
I MISS YOU SO MUCH!! haha! yesyesyes.
she came down to slack with us. since da brape lame tk turun.
haha! rindu bangat. ah ni mesti kau suke lah eh aku upload gmbr kau.
mesti punye aku tau.
btw aku nye choc eh. ferrero rocher.
jgn lupe tau. aku da snap twice choc kau. lol!
so yeah. actually i forgot to put this picture in the last post. so yeah.
i decided to repost.
she wants her pic in my blog badly.
so that she knows i miss her. lol!
i always do baby.
but aku rindu tamtam lebih uh. you know that.
sorry yerr.
"da lame tk bermesre drg kau mcm gini."
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!
Labels: I LOVE NUR AMALIYA NAHIEDA BTE HASNI
10:49 PM -
i miss you kiehl.
today was supposingly to be the 2 months we contact.
but kiehl's gone now.
not really done lah. he's still there. somewhere there.
he started to reply my msges. and im happy that he did that.
i still miss him dearly.
still cry when i think of him everyday.
haissh. still hoping he would come back.
and btw.
HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY TO MY DD ROMEO.
:)
stay happy always yeah.
and thanks for cheering me up about kiehl.
p/s: kiss me with kiehl's
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12:43 PM - Friday, February 12, 2010
i tried to be strong everyday.
but theres no difference.
everyday i tried to avoid doing stuffs that reminds me of him
avoid talking to people that reminds me of him.
but i cant.
it's hard. very hard.
idk how he can easily get over it.
he didnt talk to me neither did he smile at me. worst things worst,
he didnt even want to look at me.
today is already the fourth day im acting like a zombie.
everyday i cry remembering back the memories with him.
every night i would text him a gdnight msg but still no reply from him.
i cant simply forget him just like that.
he left too soon.
evryday i read his messages he used to send.
he didnt mean it did he?
over and over again his last words repeated in my head like a
cd player,
"i don't feel the same anymore"
with no explanation
i was lost.
everyday i feel the same. PAIN.
and i want only kiehl to cure it.
only he can. nobody else but him.
sorry crisfaz, you can't simply ask me to forget kiehl
that easily and think of you.
i just can't.
im still trying my best to move on.
but i still wished he would come back.
:(
p/s: why is getting over him fucking hard? kiehl? islysm and imy badly.
4:24 PM - Thursday, February 11, 2010
10:59 PM - Tuesday, February 9, 2010
as per normal. i went out to slack. it started out ok cos i went to meet syahir
under his block. and he is my laughing medicine. i didnt actually laugh just smiled a little.
and sorry syahir i didnt pay attention to your story.
i wasn't myself. so we went to sit and "watch" watchmen.
then came murni slacked awhile then meet ana sayang at rc. then the rest came.
i was listening to ana's mp3 when the pain started attacking me again. i held back my tears and while hearing the song that reminds me of him,
the song of my message tone when he texts me. and i couldn't control it anymore. i just let it out.
slowly my tears were dripping. i stared blankly while blur visions of my friends laughing out loudly
are fading away. staring at this place where he usually comes from when
he comes down to play soccer.
the pain is unbearable now. so i just kept on crying cps that's all i can do.
i was so weak. idk why. so weak that i didnt realise how hungry i was.
i decided to follow ana, botak and wanporn to buy food. i tried to laughbut it was harder than i thought. very hard indeed.
i just put on a fake smile all the way.went to eat then i went to street soccer court all by myself.
i forgot about the pain i was having on the afternoon.but as soon as i reached the court, the pain strucked me again.
HE was there.i turned before he saw me and walked to the other side of the court where my friend was playing soccer.
he knew the story but not fully.i walked to him angry, frustrated almost crying.
and he gave me a very hateful remark. as if he didnt care.wtf?
so i sat where no one sat. alone.listening to songs again.
thinking of the times that we used to have.the love that was almost there.
tears rolled down my eyes and they're not stopping,they can't stop. i cant control the painfulness inside anymore.
it hurt so badly.i dont know who to talk to. nobody there would even want to listen to me.
no one i can turn to and have a shoulder to cry on.so i just cried alone.
solo meo.the lights went off as the clock strikes 10
i walked off and sat at gateball with bestf and friends.i was waiting to get a chance to see him for one last time before i go home.
at least smile and make my day.waited, waited and waited.
then i realised he's not gonna come.kiehl's gone.
p/s: just a week ago you were my baby, now i dont even know you at all.
Labels: as if i never existed
3:46 PM -
even though you broke my heart
i know you still think about me from time to time,
when you're alone, i know im in your thoughts
i know a part of wishes you never broke my heart
and throw me away
i know when someone says my name
i come to your mind,
but for me, even though you broke my heart
i still love you, when im all alone you're the only
one i think about... and i sit on my bed wishing
how bad i want you to be beside me right now,
i cry for the time that
you were almost mine
i cry for the memories you've left behind
i cry for the pain,
the lost, the old, the new,
i cry for the times
i thought i had you,
this broken heart
was stronger than
the words i wish
you never meant.
p/s: he doesn't feel the same anymore.
10:42 PM - Sunday, February 7, 2010
yesterday, went out with bam, yaya, ana, wan, spike, dd, mario,
botak to town. we were suppose to follow botak go do tattoo
but the shop was closed. so all of us went to eat,
at macd then trained down to dhoby ghaut.
there we were supposed to go watch a movie but the timing was too late
and some of us cant make it as some of them have probation.
then came today, again went to town yaya's sis b'dae. it was super
gerek lah. her mum treated sixteen people at a restaurant. WOW!
imagine spending that lot of money. hmm.
after that trained home lah.
didnt get to meet kiehl yesterday and today. today is the third day already.
i miss him so much. but what to do. he has his schoolwork to do.
i just need to be patient. only god knows how much i miss him.
the other day, i think its a thursday, i wanted to go home,
but then at 8 like that kiehl came down to play soccer.
so my plans of wanting to go home early changed.
haha! i just cant resist watching him play soccer.
yes superpookie tengok die tendang bola pun can make my day. i cair ok.
so yeah i just stayed back just so i can
watch kiehl play soccer. just one match is good enough for me.
anws. somebody please please BELANJE me watch movie
i still dont know what to watch
or
anybody?
p/s:kiehl is missed badly. :'(
