12:43 PM - Saturday, October 2, 2010
ok i know my blog has been dead for idk how long. its coz i seriously dont have time to update.
and cos today is saturday and idk why i am staying home. imma update.
ok. its been 5 months going to 6 with the boy. and alhamdulilah things are fine.
not really fine but ok lah. arguments here and there.
standard ah. but im glad he stayed strong. glad he kept holding on.
i know ive been hurting you quite alot of times. and im sorry for that.
you know i love you.
and i really hope we do last.
we can do it real big, bigger than you've ever done it.
i want this forever.
can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky's like shooting stars?
Labels: BEST I EVER HAD.
6:33 PM - Saturday, June 19, 2010
this is irritating.
its always my fault isnt it?
nvr yours.
though its the slightest hing i did.
still can be a big issue.
right? and only i hurt you.
you've always taken good care of my heart.
its always me.
i always make you angry.
im sorry for that.
i may not need to leave you unless i have to.
i dont care about your feelings.
i only care about myself.
and i always find fault with you.
this is going to have to end.
start trusting me.
i know its hard but you have to.
i did my part.
and now yours too.
do say you care if you dont mean it.
like seriously.
how to stop arguing?
simple.
stop contacting.
cos everyday without fail,
there will be an argument between us.
i cn live with that.
but you.
asked me to stop arguing.
and again. its not always your heart,
your feelings, your friends, your way.
i need me time too.
Labels: when there was me and you
12:25 AM - Saturday, June 12, 2010
i've been wondering what if he fell in live with her? im so afraid to lose him.it's holidays already and i doubt he has alot of plans. idk if things will change within this one night. but i hope not.idk why. but im starting to miss her. stupid me. i know. maybe really nothing or no one can ever seperate us. but nothing i can do. he prolly hates me too now. its ok.anws back to the topic. th boy is at his friend's chalet. and anything can happen within one night. im effing afraid idk why. i hope he know who's best for im. like seriously. if he change his feelings tmrw or sooner or later. i gonna be prepared for it. imma be strong enough to let him go. maybe i will try to. i trust him i trust him i trust him. tats all i've been repeating in my heart after start to ignore my msges. i hope he knows what he's doing. have fun but dont forget me. imma keep myself busy and not think of you. not gonna irritate you by texting you alot of times and just wait till you text me first. time check 12.34 a.m and you still havent replied me. imma go off now. gonna go call a troublemaker. idk why he suddenly ask me to go call him.Labels: AKU EGO
10:03 PM - Monday, May 31, 2010
to ex friend:
please change. everyone is talking about you, everyone ok.
my friends are also talking about you.
i really dont like the way you are now.
look at yourself. e
ven the guys that met you for the first time already comment about you to me.
what is ever going to become of you?
not only in school. even budak2 lepak says so.
they dont like you, cos you seem
to be attracting alot of attention to yourself.
and its not only in your school eh.
even my classmates hate you.
why are you behaving like a cheap girl?
why?
most of the guys in your school say they have tried you before.
how sick can that be?
wait?!
why do i care so much about you
when you dont even give a fcuk about me.
why?
because you used to be my friend after all.
but not anymore.
i dont want a friend like you.
maybe i was foolish to have pitied you
and made you my friend but ended up this way.
haha! but now you know what?
PADAN MUKE KAU!
i hope one day you get back what you did to me.
one day you'll realise it.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
JAHAT NYE AKU NIE.
dbh:
i just want you to know that iloveyou so much.
and i will wait for it. but just want you to know that no one waits forever.
dont blame me if i were to fall for others.
we can still be friends right.
but you know i wont cos you know how choosy i can be.
but whatever it is. islysm
AND I HATE SLUTS!
Labels: YOU ARE A SLUT dotdot
3:01 PM - Friday, May 28, 2010
hello. well its a public holiday today and im sitting alone at home right now.
havent bathe cos my mum went out to get shampooooooo.
well. the boy asked me what time is my netball training starting. i said at 8, he then asked me whether can meet earlier or not. i was like? eh? i tot he's going gig? but no. he's following me. mayhem is not hadcore gig. so yeah. im siiting here in front of the lappy thinking how to contact him. no house phone,no handphone for him. the only way is through internet.
and i noticed that buffalo is quiet for a few days ready.
i dont know why but yeahhhh. good ahh. maybe she's starting again. who knows?
but who cares? i dont need to care cos i've got wonderful friends to back me up.
the boy, my friend, nurul says we're sweet.
she likes to see couples argue then suddenly ok already.
yahahahahaha! how cute. but too bad we're not a couple eh.
and thanks for accompanying me to accompany my friend to cut hair.
i still can't believe that you're going to accompany me laterrrrr. hmmmmm.
i so want to hug you. gerammmmm ah. iloveyou
iloveyou more
iloveyou the most!!!
Labels: JENG
4:35 PM - Friday, May 21, 2010
hi, i know it has been awhile since i last blogged. i really dont have anything to blog about. but today, a veryvery teary day for me.im sorry if this is going to be abit emo. this is all i have left. im effing hurt and i dont even know who to talk to.i dont know who to share this with, dont have any shoulder to cry on, dont even know who i can trust, been crying for the past 2 hours and my eyes are red. im sad plus angry and upset. favourite boy, i apologise for not saying this face to face cos i was really hurt just now. i dont know if you were ever going to read my blog but i just want to tell you that what happened just now was all misunderstanding. i was just talking to fafa about wanting to follow and paitao my netball training, but i have no friend then she said she'll go if i go. i asked you what time are you all gonna finish skating you said you don't know. then joe confronted me there, in front of everybody. do you know how shy i was? you didn't tell me you wanted to go so badly. i didn't say you can't go i just told george that i've netball. at that point of time i was already thinking of not going. i still can't accept the fact that he confronted me. not knowing my side of the story. and i was really hurt that you didn't even want to listen to my explanation. i asked you questions but you were there right in front of me staring . i dont know what you were thinking but you didnt answer. while i was crying just now i was thinking about you. did i hurt you, do you even care? no? why are you still here? why didnt you just go off with hadi and faz? maybe its my fault? well if it is then im really sorry. i know you wanted to go so badly but maybe you were afraid to tell me? afraid i might not let you cos of this netball thing. but boy, i have no rights to not let you do what you like to do. im no one in your life. not your gf. we're just friends right. so i really have no rights. you want freedom? joe wants you to have freedom? then i let you have freedom. ok? if that's what you like. i dont want to be someone that controls your life. if you dont want to go then say no. i wont force you anymore. im sure you said i dont let you go thats why joe confronted me that way. im sorry for whatever things i've done. no matter what boy i just want you to know that i still feel the same towards you, but.Labels: daniel bnag hakim| leave it all behind
12:10 AM - Saturday, May 1, 2010
schoolhas started for me so theres no more slacking and waking up late for me.
met new friends and old ones too. and and i love my classmates. the are the fucking best! and i dont know what it would be if they're not there. muahaha!
ngong.
i just want you to know that im just afraid you might leave me for no reason, it's happened to me three times already and im scared it would repeat.
sorry for being too protective and sensitive over the smallest things. i know you're just being yourself.
slowly but steadily we're just going to have to adjust to our differences. i want to be there for you. give you everything you never had. and make you happy in everyway that i can.
i really feel so stupid blogging about you when i know that you won't read it.
but who cares?
i dont know who to talk to and who would hear me.
sometimes when people talk i listen but when i talk people seem to ignore.
why? cos they say i talk rubish. rightttt. thenwhat they are talking are not rubbish?
pfft!
there are alot of things that i want to spill but i just don't feel like it today.
some other day maybe?
no matter what, i still love my classmates m hanging around with.
they ae just a bunch of awsome people and class would die i they're not there.
who cares if they don't liste to me. i just sit one side and listen to them spill all the stupid things, be it
dancing, jokes,whatever, in the end they still made my day.
p/s: the best i ever had, give you everything, no, you don't have to ask.
Labels: YAKDUSH
